hmm i'm back to blog *again* hmmm really rotted till i've got fungus growing on me.. didn't go out... was at home... for ONE whole day.. hahahahah! played piano.. learn new piece.. all my old piece are getting suckier... sigh... no practise? lack of practise? whtever! i'm jus afraid.. one dya i wil give up.. then, i will be so damn angry with myself, why didn't i stop from the beginning? why only now?! grr.. alot of feelings is going through me.. i'm going against myself now. i got no control over it... what is this? why has things became like this?! grrrr.... i dunnoe what i'm thinking... i know tht i'm in a very very confused state these few days.