i hate myself.. i don't like bring pessimistic.. i don't like being stupid, i do'nt like being dumb.. who will be here for me when i need them? i do'nt want to see things fall apart.. but it seems that i'm making that things fall apart.. NO.. i don't wanna let go.. how? alot of things i said.. but i don't wish it happens... take me away from this world...