2nd post of the day.. i'm that bored.. yes.. i'm at home.. in my room, but i feel so out of place... though i'm at MY place...

what can i say... jus.. out of place..

yar... and i'm freaking irritated by the fact that i can't play piano. this is a home.. with 2 tv.. and one freaking piano! so.. when there's someone at home i can't play piano? why have piano in the first place?! reasonable to me?! i'm jus like a freak! yar yar... i'm always different from whoever in this family, they are all so wild, so sociable... wht about me?! i'm jus so spoilt... got piano.. someone who only listens to classical.. yar.. wht a freak lah... yar.. they got all sorts of friends.. wht about me?! none... who the hell cares?! i'm willingly gonna sell that piano if someone wanna pay for it.. i see no point for it. 1) i'm not talented 2) it's no point if i have a piano at home and can't play. 3) i'm so not motivated. freaking ass, whenever he school work is not good, who gets the blame? ME! freaking hell! sorry.. but i really don't see how much i should be responsible for him

i'm jus like that for the past 2 days. a part of me seems to be leaving.. and yes, it's exam time again... each time exam draws nears, something will always happen to make me darn sad... and this time round.. i already know wht would happen, it's sooner or later... whtever it is... i wish that nothing change... though something will definitely change, i already can feel it. pray for me. for strength and good health... both of them are failing me.