why why why why??! y do i seem to be the only one??? congrats... there won't be anyone to bug u anymore. -i surrender- aiya.. even if i say i die.. u also won't care.. "doesn't voice out doesn't mean dont care" yar.. i think it's really don't care. i'm more like a bugger.. more like a irritant. what have i? like a beee buzzing at ur ears.. sscolding u.. reprimanding u. what else do i know to do? yar.. i mean nothing.. not even a cent worth. maybe others are more worthwhile. maybe when the same words comes out from different mouth means better. i shall hide away since i'm such a pest. u made me feel so. thanks so much. i know u will NEVER try to address this. it's ok.

i don't wish to move an inch now.. a part of me seemed lost. i feel like hiding away.. i think i'm worthless.. i mean nothing.. i'm stupid.. and i'm dumb. still the same sentence.. who appreciate what i does? (han i know u say you'd i know)

i'm always different from others... whenever ppl are with me.. they are always different. WHAT'S WRONG??! i feel so inferior.. i feel ever down. i tried.. and i don't wish to continue.. coz... after everything.. things will be the same... at times... i wish to be involve in an accident, and see who will come.. but.. seeing things.. i bet anyone will come. NOT even the ones i deemed will come. at most hazmi? but not after tml.

tears are rolling down again... i'm hurt by this.. for months.. i've not been thinking about it. i also don't know why such feelings came back today after a conversation. maybe that person alr wanna tell me as much to stay out of his/her life? maybe.. he/she would most likely say "anything u say. or if u think that way.. i've got nothing to say"