i feel the hurt... cause by several things over the past week. don't know to blame my itchy fingers or what? i jus happen to see soemthing or notice something that i always don't wish to see... but i choose to keep quiet.. coz i don't wanna affect anyone for their CT... but why are u so easily affected by what he had said.. and not what i said... maybe like i say... just friends vs good friends... that's the difference... that's why.. it doesn't make any difference if i've said anything... coz.. i don't mean anything.. anyway! already said.. melinda.. it's JUST FRIENDS.... shut ur stupid mind lah! i feel like slapping myself.. for being such an idiot.. for not studying... can it not go behind my back? i'm v tired... v v tired... it's jus like a play.. a... normal setting.. ppl don't care what u do behind the scene... ppl only care about ur final product that they see... i don't care how much effort u placed in.. coz they can't see at alll...

WHY AM I ALWAYS SO DIFFERENT FROM OTHER PPL??!

i totally hate myself to the core.. no value... not worth ANYTHING... u can jolly well go and die melinda lee. no one give u a freaking damn.. "and stop acting like u are the victim"<--- someone told me this when i was in sec sch.. maybe.. it's true...

i feel like yelling.. i feel like crying.. i wanna cry.... i'm not happy..