words can't express the feeling i have inside.. and no.. nothing happened.. hee! has anyone wondered how wonderful is it to be alive? to be perfect as a whole?

i doubt anyone has noticed anything around them... or maybe.. they will say i have too much time.. but y are we always showered with all our bad memories and pessimistic thoughts.. or even school stress.. indeed we are sinners.. but i don't think life is all abotu suffering that much. How many days of a year.. some one noticed the greens around them.. and felt that they are blessed. coz we are given everything!

i always grumble that my life sucks.. coz i do'nt have this and that.. blar blar blar.. till yrs ago.. i met someone.. who played a part for my life.. without him.. there won't be melinda... he taught me confidence.. and how to look at things from the different perspective...

call me mad.. haha.. but normally while going to sch, on the bus... i will look at all those tress and landscape for a very long time.. and i feel happy... smiled even. sounded nuts.. but i think.. it's really a mircle for all of us to be here.. to see the green... everything.. no, i wasn't born in a rich family, no, i wasn't born in a perfect family, and no, i do'nt have a happy childhood. indeed.. a difficult journey.. but well, i'm not standing here alone... coz i know whoever who's taking time out to read my post also do not have an easy past... it seems to many of us that...saddness comes easier than happiness... but... how many times.. have we put ourselves into ppl of different places, background and think? us being singaporeans... seriously.. i find it very very fortunate... i tried to figure out... wht will become of me if i'm living in m'sia... most likely, like the rest of my cousin, will only last till O levels.. which is their SPM. i tried to figure out.. and it's horrible.. and wht would it be like.. in places like.. thailand? vietnam?! i think.. i really dunnoe wht will melinda become loh...

Who doesn't want the best... who doesn't have problems? but it's jus a journey of life... to make u experience more... and gain more.. not to bring you down.. take a moment.. to quietly think about it... everything around u... if u tell me u have no time.. tml... don't make "no time" as an excuse.. i used to be that way... "oh.. busy.. no time lah". think of it.. there's alot of ppl.. hoping that there's still a tml for them.. but.. some times.. they never live to see that moment. i seirously also don't know how old will i live till..

there's nothing hidden in my post.. jus that.. i dunnoe y.. i felt that everything is wonderful.. well.. it's a crappy post also.. i dunnoe wht i'm posting also.. lalallalalala... and HELLO?! i'm not thinking too much.. some ppl jus like to tell me that i'm thinking too much