sometimes.. i feel that i'm being "forced" to do certain things.. i don't understand why 2 perosn who like eaceh other cannot be together? alright.. whtever... i shouldn't say anything nor do anything.. after being single for 19 yrs.. maybe abother 10 more yrs won't make a diff... or even a life time more.. or maybe in this life.. i will jus be a toy... played and played by different ppl...

i wanna fall.. i don't wanna stand.. i'm tired.. tired from everything.. can it end? how? when? everything is haunting me...