been working ME these few days... darn tired... i slpt like a pig ytr... from 5-7pm... then 11pm till 8.30am... piggy piggy!! ahhhh! -pull hairs- i wanna eat ice cream now...

suddenly, i've got some... confused feelings... feeling scared.. alot of "wht if" keeps appearing in my mind. it made me scared... but, things are jus so practical in this world. unfair too... we'll jus have to wait, wait and wait. even if we try to make it work, if it's not ours.. also no point.

He's flying off today... yup... don't even know if we have time to meet next week.. will we? or maybe i'm forgotten over the week.. and... melinda won't exist alr...