like what my MSN nick indicated... "My held back my tears serveral times today.. " partly due to project.. and another cause..

projects nv fails to stress me out... i wish i could yell everything out.. i wish i could jus cry.. but each time when i wan to.. it either jus don't wanna come out or i'm at that wrong place... i start to doubt my ability.. do i really have the ability of a 19 yr old? am i really capable of doing things?

another cause of tears... which i can't state here.. sigh... i dunnoe why one has to insist? am i really doing it wrong? maybe i am... dunnoe... i feel... like.. dunnoe what.. i also dunnoe what to say... nvm.. i dunnoe how to say... i can't possibly ignore it.. neither did i wan to remember it.. hurts..

gals always say the opps.. i jus realised.. maybe.. certain things i'm doing. is to provoke certain things.. but does it help? i say i like rich man.. actually, poor man i also dun mind... standards can be set by ourselves... but what we are talking about is feelings... nvm.. i can dream on...