one day... and so much had happened.. to blame it on myself or what? not enough slp.. only 2 hour of slp... unfriendly eyes.. + so much at work...

convincing myself... telling myself. DON'T THINK SO MUCH.. rubbish.. dunnoe wha ti'm talking about.. if any of u would know my situation... or were to be in my situation.. u all will also be at a loss... is anyone there with me?? HELLO?!!! *echoes* ... sigh

**edit:
alright.. at the end.. i found someone who's there for me today... + a bonus... from someone rare.. but i'm still feeling v bad from the morning experience.. was it jus a fright? bleah... i'm loving this song... and its lyrics... nice... it's unfaithful by.. rihanna...


[Verse 1:]
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

[Hook:]
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

**Chorus

[Verse 2:]
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

[Hook:]
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

**Chorus

[Breakdown:]
Our Love... his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

Oooohhh... anymore

**Chorus
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

No, no, no... yeah