sigh... one big morning and i'm here to blog again. a lil dumb.. i'm feeling VERY guilty.. haven't started studying.. i think i'm gonna do badly this sem.

aren't life weird? ppl whom u treat as good friend.. can treat u as trash... diff ppl got diff definition in life.. maybe that's y. i start to wonder.. when i was back in m'sia.. i wondered... wht if... this friend/ relative died.. wht is my reaction.. BAH.. i know i got too much time to think lah.. but in m'sia is that boring de. and so.. i tot about it.. and i know my reaction.. from young.. i've always wondered... who will even bother about me if i land in the hospital one day. i seemed like a nobody.. i do'nt touch anyone's life (don't mean that touching ppl's lifes means i'm somebody) i'm not impt in anyone's ppl life.. only my parents perhaps. how sad things can be.

this christmas was showered with blessings. one of the happiest i had for the past few years. my wish for this yr didn't come true. it's always v weird.. whtever that i wish for.. will turn out opposite.... boo.

i'm feeling soo.. lonely.