hmmm
when will be my next post?

HAHAHA>. i'm sure.. tml

Now i really realised why i'm so troubled... it's the feeling of fear... fear of a big drastic change... change of time zone = disconnect with so much things....

if i regret... i could only blame myself..

bahz...
till then...
please... don't forget me....
its jus a different time zone...
i'm still alive..

no one's reading my blog..


who is?

anyway...


my bdae wish list is out(and its one month later.. sigh.. bdae... I HATE THAT).. *winks*..

1) i wan...


HAHAHAHA..... a new MP3.... 1gb? or 2gb? mine i think is 256mb... can hardly hold anything much. Booo



orr...




2) a hifi set... sony has soemthing nice that's 149.. or panasonic.. that's 79.90.. enzer got one.. that's... 69 i think...
this is... for.. panasonic... 80 bucks...









100bucks... pana also...
hm.... 149bucks.. sony





enzer... i think its 69...


if anyone is reading. tell me which is nice?

3) a pair of dance shoes... i wanna buy that $120 de? but mad..

this is the 120bucks pair.. SIGHS

so maybe a $39 one will do? i already found it too!!

hmm.. what else? that's all for now...

if there's really a rich guy out there.. i wan an apartment too.. hahaha.. remember? i have plans to shift out... till now.. i'm still quite serious about it =)

bleah!

HAHAHa.. the one about apartment is joking only laa... who will be so siao?

but anyway... i guess.. end up... i'd buy all the 3 items listed above myself.. but its ok.. at least there's something out there that i can shop for.

=)

I'M BLOODY UNHAPPY...

my regret in choosing CS? THE PAY!

why is everyone talking about.. can they jus shut the hell up?!

i hate going home.. and u know why? cos my mom will harp about it! what she expect me to do? earn 2.5 and give her 1.5 jus like what her friend's daughter give?
STOP COMPARING!!!

WHY DO U ALWAYS LIKE TO COMPARE ME WITH OTHER PPL?!
i hate it...

u always say i'm fat.. always say i'm this and that...

i become so pessimistic.. is becos of u!... when is studied hard.. u only see ur son.. when i dunnoe a term, u jus commented "i wonder why u put u through education". since u love ur son so much.. go lah!

i hate being the middle child... they will compare u with the elder and attention tot he younger!

jus leave me alone. how much i give is my bloody problem. why do u wanna know? so that u can buy more things and ask ppl to pay cos its for the home? that's the case.. i think u have got a LONG list to write.

you ask me to shift out? i will do that sooner or later.. i'm hating it.. and u don't know...

why do u wanna add troubles to me.. what u see is that ppl got no troubles.. only u have.. but have u ever know what ur daughter thinks in this bias family?!

and all these is due to one bloody bitch.. who can't shut her mouth.. and tell me mom i have allowance...

she can't wait to see me shift out!
good!

jus took this test....
and its really quite true

You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

You refuse to relax or to give in and you are endeavouring to keep exhaustion and depression at bay by keeping active. You are experiencing a relationship or a situation which is not satisfactory but you feel powerless to change it. You have that 'need to be needed' but you do little to achieve the sense of belonging that you need. You try to disguise your feelings of insecurity and so you continue to resist this state of affairs - and as a consequence you are experiencing tension and stress. Your depression makes you irritable and impatient. You have that urge to get away from the situation, either actually or mentally. You are finding it increasingly difficult to concentrate.

Anxiety and a restless antagonism, as a result of unfulfilled emotional needs, has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to overcome this by working and playing extremely hard - but at all times you have your future in mind. You are a worker and as a result of your inherent enthusiasm you cannot fail.

really quite true.. i haven't been feeling so good since the signing of CSFB's contract... i dunnoe what's right or wrong... it seems like.. i'm feeling a lil off already.. becos of something, but that.. i'm sure will be gone soon... and of course.. other factors..

i haven't been slping well tooo.... each 2~3 hours.. i'd wakie once.... and each time i wakie... i expect the alarm clock to ring soon so i can wakie and get dressed for work..

i'm troubled... who knoes...

gonna have a new beginning, new start, new environment, new ppl, new challenge, new lifestyle.....

its getting scary.... i'm excited... and scared... cos i dunnoe how or what is it going to be...
sigh.. okok.. when time comes.. then we tlak about it..

anyway...
my mind is so occupied by so many things recently.. kinda filled with sadness... i dunnoe what that stupid other party one... its making me.. so... ARGH
=x
anyway.. dunnoe what i'm talking about too..

Why it always don't happen on Melinda??

sighs!

quite heartbroken