is there any kind hearted souls out there who would buy me either a E65 (red) or a red ipod 4GB?

melinda is dreaming!!!!

moody.. pek chek.. feel like smacking everything and anything

Melinda is thinking about negative things again...

as usual... some ppl can motivate me.. while some can jus make me feel otherwise...
these few days.. its jus.. feeling otherwise.

Am i starting to regret that i'm not pursuing a degree? perhaps so.
i realised, putting a dip holder and a deg holder together, ppl will pick a conversation up with the deg holder..

I also realised that looks are darn impt? not to mention.. figure too.. having it.. is like having all the money in the world... without eat? can eat shit kind..... what a society! hate it hate it...

I think.. i won't go and buy N80 le.. ='(
go and get a tv for my room is better.. when i come home from work.. at times i can't couldn't slp.. jus wanna watch tv... but.. BAH i can't! cos places where the tv are, there will be ppl slping there!

like whtever... i'm so damn disappointed still... this time. i'm not going to expect anything nor something.. i've just seen how i'm treated... as a friend... hanging on for so many yrs... i finally woke up..

i'm.. disappointed.. happy... and tired..

die le lah.. i still can't get used to london hours.. 2am i already yawn like mad liao! HELP ME!!! going forward, i still have to work till about 3am? 4am?!

i'm disappointed.... cos of certain things...

i hope that this week will be better...

i know certain things won't last.. but somehow.. i think about it

i'm on the verge of breaking down...

you no longer wan me... that i know for sure...

job scope.. i can't cope...

too much things is proccessing in my mind...

too much things.....

unhappiness > happiness..

why doesn't anyone want me?

its taking a toll on me...

i wanna hide away...

pick me up....

where's my pillar of strength?

gosh... seems like lots had happen...
but.. infact.. nothing much.

jus completed my 2 day induction training by Credit Suisse...
was rather fun.. get to know more more more ppl? ehehehe

since both days are 9am - 6pm.. i get a lil night life!!!

tues was out with hui bao... bleah.. had dimsum and... went V tea @ esplanade for cakes... yummy.. and today.. out with veron to rocky mas.. to have my fave dbl bake choc cake...

once again.. if i'm down.. u konw why la har.. over the say reason la.. someone... i can't let go again.. bleah.. i'm so... easily affected de!!

work wise? trying hard to cope... tml.. will be learning a new entire new thing.. hopefully i'd learn fast..and able to serve the company soon!

bah.. got lots of things in my mind that i wanna post about before i come here and blog.. but now that i'm here.. i totally forgot what i wanna blog about... BLEAH! my terrible absent mindedness has come back...

quite disappointed... am i not worth investing a lil of ur effort and time?

another day passed by...
i'm quite dreadful for monday....
dunnoe why.... do i not like work?

hmmm.. now i regret not giving myself any break in between changing jobs...
i guess.. i've tied myself up this life time? one after the other.... bah...

i got my first bdae pressie! hmm... its in one of my wish list.. =)

i guess... i'm ill fated...
surrender.. SURRENDER

i'm feeling so damn crappy..
lack of slp? nah.. i have enough slp... about... 7hours per day?

was thinking about some stuff before i sleep yesterday...
i am jus reading too much into certain stuff....
we are jus friends.. nothing else.. why can't i jus react like JUS FRIENDs attitude?
sigh...
my fault
its me...

been working since the age of 16? nonstop... one after another.. ppl often ask me "u need so much money meh?"

others ask how i cope... i dunnoe.. i somehow manage to finish my poly (after skipping countless of lectures), got on my life, and move on job after job... but then again, my resume don't look nice also? in a short span of 4 yrs dunnoe how many jobs i've changed... keke.. well.. i was a student then.. with attachment.. and part time all falling into place...

i realise i need a break.. when will i have that break?

is it becos of period that i'm feeling this way? not exactly happy... can anyone make me a lil happier?

i'm jus asking for too much...

ARGH...
melinda is a lil... grumpy now...
but its ok.. soon will be over...
mel had quite a happy day today...

Mel had fried mars bar.....
Mel met her sec sch bestie....
Mel cut her hair...

we were tired... we have no craps this time...
sigh...

but i'm date-d by her for another date... =)
its good enough for someone to remember dates who kinda mean something to me...
hahaha...

and the first person who asked "what u want for bdae?" faintss...
i'd say.. so long u remember....
HAAaaa...
and for the past yrs.. my bdaes are spent with her be it if its sat or sun or mon (ppl always say they are busy during those dates)!!
this yr too!!
hmm
looking forward for that day to makan with her..

if i ever be les.. i guess... don't need to say also know is who... sales assistants jus now... tot i was her PA.... faintss.. =p

good friends cannot shop ah?~ hhahahaha =p