you know what?! yesterday... i did mailing.. but i forgot to paste stamps before mailing... sigh.. i was so terrified tht i cried... today leh.. ok loh.. hui hui gave birth to a baby boy le.. yay!! hmmm... i tot i would get a trashing from her... but sherry rather annoyed at her for not teaching me anything before she leave... coz already ask her to teach me le.. but she didn't... hmmm... heard tht her baby.. tht dunnoe wht cord... got tangled at his neck... so risky loh..! lucky nothing happened to both the mother and son...

today i did circulating... printing and stuffs... seemed easy.. but it's very messy de... tht boss looked scary too..!!! hahahaha... hey,.. sorry la... i'm very tired... update next time de..
lolz... Goodnight and God Bless

BACK!!! hmmm 1st day of work!!!! hmmm.... kinda bored... but then, time really flies like nobody's business... the company got so many boss... 4... C.W lee, C.K Lee..., C.Y Lee, C.K Lee... maybe when i get to learn more things... i'll be busy le ba.. sigh.. i really don't know what to say today... oh ya... i also can't understand y some ppl jus like to put hatred in their heart... does it feel tht good?

do you ever ask yourself? in life... y some ppl compare??? yes.. you have to see who compare.. if you compare with ppl who like to look down on ppl.. of coz he will compare you and look down on you... but if it's the other case.. then it's different!!! he compare jus to let you know...i started my clarinet playing since late nov 2001... then.. techically, i'm not bad... but not tone wise... jus becoz tht person compare you with me means you are a bad person? i think whoever who really thinks tht... you are jus narrow minded..! i had been quoted as an example... not for you to compare... but you took it as comparing... i've been quote... becoz he wanted to let you know that for someone who can learnt it in such short time... you can too... he's trying to encourage you.. not discourage... but why must you see things this way?? and in the end.. say that ppl sucks? i can't understand these ppl... wht's on their mind? being first?

i don't think life has only one direction... open up your thinking and you will find yourself... find yourself happier understanding and reaching out to ppl... you never try... you'll never know... yes... you can say that you tried hard... how hard... ask yourself... yes... you wanna try... think about this... you wanna try... but have you tried to take out things tht are occupying our brains like... how bad this person treats you... how bad is this... or... how am i going to handle such problem i'm facing...? take them out first... before you start opening yourself... nothing is more important than yourself... if you can't even love ourself... keep torturing yourself with those thoughts, how can you expect yourself to love others? love is not jus about you and that person only... it's about the whole world... whole universe... so what you only love the one whom you like... and dislike the rest (as in mistreat) what will he think? yes, of coz you can please him... but for how long? won't you get sick of it? remember?? when you (those who are reading this) had a feeling with one person... or in a relattionship with one person... you will for at least once.. tell youself tht this is going to last.. it's going to be forever.... but... the truth is that... nothing in this world is made to be forever... your mom is not going to be forever... your child is not going to be forever... you loves ones will leave one day too...

i can't really accept that too... but i know... sooner or later i'll jus accept it... who can? live life the way you wanted... not what the world wanted... you are born to be you are... you might not think that you what you wanted... open up... be joyful each day... and when you did that... you will look back.. and tell ppl how much great fun you had... God created us not for nothing... He wouldn't waste his time to create us if he know that we'll be a nuisence (oops) to the world... think about it... finally... God Bless...trust in the Lord lean not on your own understanding. In all, all of your ways acknowledge him, and He'll make your path straight

HIyee... hmm long long time no update le.. (hmm.. actually only a few days la) hmm i've got the job!!! starting work on tues... the 17th feb... have to find my way there again... lolz... sigh.. the past few days.. i've been sick!!! cough.. flu... fever... argh!!! irritating... tht time i went to consult the doctor... they said that i need to wear a marks.!! jus becoz i'm having a fever... all that SARS and bird flu's fault...!

It's Valentine's Day yesterday.. Happy Belated Valentine's Day peepz... lolz... not bad loh.. i also got a rose from a guy... lolz... hehe and a present too!! (tht was meant to be my x'mas present!!!) hmmm but the days was so fun!! i enjoyed it...

oh ya..! sue ann mummy came down to town too!!! we met her... (we meaning me, keith, kenneth, daniel, joann, daphne, zenas, aaron and kevin). we went to NYDC for lunch.. the bill amounted to $112!! lolz... still ok la.. for about 8 ppl to eat for $112 at NYDC... after which, we walk down to cine... actually wanna play tht e-zone de.. but so many ppl... and that place had became so small~ unlike last time.. hmm then.. we went to a restuarant *AGAIN!!!* this time it's a sushi rest. lolz... then at about 6.30, kevin, me and mummy had to leave for cell group... lolz.. it's fun..!!! hehe... kinda not well organise though.

sigh... piano teacher postphoned my lessons to next month.. sigh.. can't wait for the lesson actually... sigh... :( kk... gtg.. slp.. it's late le... hehehe.... enjoy your day!! oh ya..!!! today... Davina asked me to be her 'jie' (elder sister in chinese) then i was like.. hmm no harm.. then ok loh... hehehe... but she was so disappointed to know that i'm going to work and will not be seeing me for the next 3 months at least... she said that she jus acknowledge me as jie then i wana 'leave' her... lolz..!!! k la... go le... God Bless.. and Goodnight

hm... a brand new day... i went for an interview today... it's a senoko way... man.. i tell you.. the view of the place is SO nice!!! it's facing the sea.!! man!! i love it... hmm the interviewer said tht she would call me if they are giong to employ me.. buti think is no chance le la.. i got no work experience... no nothing... somemore so young.. who wanna employ

hmmm jus discovered... brian dislike me sooooooo much... i'm really so sad... i treat him as such a good friend.. but th's wht i got back.. maybe last time.. when my friend tell me.. i should already give it up le ba... but i clang on to it... i didn't let go.. coz i think, he understand my intention... but no! i was wrong... instead.. i think he dislike me.. i've been hurt time by time (correct english anot ar?) what is this? so he dislike me?? argh!!! i also don't knoe la.. *confused*

i confront bing yang about this too.. you know wht he dislike about me?? becoz i've got 2 character... jus becoz i used to be a band major last time... he said during band i'm strict (one character) then outside band.. i'm very funky (another character) what is this??! then in band and outside band must be same meh?i'm sorry loh.. but i'm a really strict person loh.. in band is band mah... then another thing.. is becoz i'm too helpful... *diaoz* this one i also dunoe wht to say la.. i asked if it's kpo those kinda helpful.. he say no... argh!!! then say tht i'm too straight forward.. but i think.. if i'm not striaght forward... who the hack tells them wht's wrong? if i don't care for them... wht for i be straight forward to them? then last is i'm sarcastic.. this one i agree la.. i'm quite sarcastic.. but on second thoughts... i'm out of band..!! what talk about my 2 character? isn't it out of qns??

my brother is still sick... hmm last night went to mandarin hotel for supper..!! lolz... hmmm actually go wisma de indo chine eat de but then.. wisma is going to shut doen the whole building's electricity at 2350h.. so didn't go... hmmm~~ k le.. today write till here le.. tml hafta go back sch for band to help.. hehehehe.... today Goh smsed... so funny.!! lolz... ok.. pray hard tht i get the job..! lolz... nite nite.. and God Bless!!

Hmmm.. okie.. first time i ever did this kinda thing... seen my friends all having a blog.. but i don't have it myself... lolz... anyway... i think it'll be a site where i will hide and show all my feelings... today is a boring day.. (actually everyday is the same) i'm so irritated... i tried to look for a job... but it seemed that all their qulifications are so high! what can i take? but nonetheless.. i've got an interview at *gosh!* i forgot to write the company's name.. i think is art something.. wood something one la... at senoko road... rather far nia.. but it's admin work.. don't even know if i can get tht job... *fingers crossed*

my brother had been sick for weeks... today didn't go school again... mom had jus brought him to the doc.. this time round.. chinese doc..

oh ya..! i wake up especially early to catch the grammy award... hmm not bad la...not as good as the show i watched yesterday from arts central (bobby ferrin) he's fantastic... jus now in the morning... helped mama to cook lunch.. so cool... hmmm miss all my dudes in thailand, chiang mai... wish to see them again... *having mixed feelings now...*