how i wish i'm as hardworking in studies.. bah!!

i'm kinda speechless for words now... i'm like destroying myself.. lalalaal madded... i think i'm posting for nothing... bo liao!!!!!

ciao!

i dunnoe what to blog.. suddenly it seems so dull... like.. -------------------------- i don't like certain conversation that i had with some ppl today.. i dunnoe if it's work or what.. but i'm getting more and more impatient. picking on the customers is such an easy job for me now.. or is it becoz i'm lack of slp.. if that's the case.. wht ain't i in bed?!! i'm tossing around since 10pm.. and yet i can't slp!!! sigh.. last resort?? come online and blog!! bah!!!

Malaysia travel fair had jus finished... well.. i dunnoe what happened on the first 2 days.. coz i only went for the last day.. but the crowd seems to be lesser than what i saw and experience during the last fair.. none the less... yup... i completed that crazy 15 hours of work.. i wonder how some of my colleagues did that (han.. how did u?).

a lil moody.. not been meeting up with someone.. can we pls meet?! say also no use... work is tying us down... after work is sch.. i dunnoe what i'm doing.. anyone save me?!

i wanna slp.. i really do.. but i can't.. i jus lie there.. with eyes open.. terrible!!!! =(

oh.. and i went spizza to makan le.. kekeke... the food is... alright lah.. so so only... what else is there to eat?? anyone tell me... it's so limited in my mind...

i've been losing appettite. boo!

what a day.. i really got the dorothy top i wan.. and now.. i saw another one... goodness.. maybe i will get it i guess.. a lil mad i think.. but will.. sigh.. bottom i've got plenty... not tops.

disappointing.. i'm disappointed. i'm moody. i'm not someone who's there for ppl to push here and there. but.. i'm always that... everything seems to come to an end.. ppl changed... this time.. i really dunnoe what to do... if i know how to take.. i must learn how to let go.. no matter how much i want or do not want to. from day 1...i know, if a normal person like do such things.. anyone could... if that day comes, i will take a step back. it's saddening that i'm so different. so different from rest of the friend. you made me feel worthless... and i realised, no one enjoys my company, other ppl's company are better. shopping alone is quite fun as well.. i did it today... i guess... it's my routine.. and i will grow to be independent.

i really hope ppl communicate. if you're angry with me. say you're angry. don't ignore me.. pls pls don't ignore me... =(

will everything gonna be the End?

bah!! what a tiring day! my legs are aching.. even slping at 11pm can't help me.. i'm still so tired... -yawn- finished work at 11am.. went to meet wendy and passed veron the tic.. keee walked around orchard loh.. whtever i wanna eat.. wendy don't wanna eat.. ended up, i gave up, don't eat don't eat loh.. but she also gave in to me.. had MOS in the end.. BAH. she damn li hai lah.. got pay only.. spent $200 le.. i think only 1/3 of her pay is left. faints.. she can really spend loh...

got a lil impatention lah.. she go try clothes can try till i walk finish the whole mall de loh.. faints. anyway.. saw this dorothy perkins top.. gonna get it.. came back awhile. and went ikea.. nothing to buy le... they don't have much things now.. BAH...

what a boring day... i dread for thurs.. dread for friday.. dread for monday

what do u use to clean a tuba?
ans: a tuba toothpaste

what do u call a piano thatdrops on an army base?
ans: an A major

what do u call a piano that dropped on a mine field??
ans: an A minor

there was 3 person who walks into a bar, and they were C, Eflat and G... but the bar tender said: "GET OUT OF THE BAR! we do not accept MINORSs"

hahaha!! it's nuts lah.. funny.. there's this kid whom i'm watching on the TV... he was a piano prodigy damn pro... he's only like what? 7 or 8 yrs old.. and the above jokes were said by him... i was laughing my head off... though some were really hard to catch. but he's really pro.. he played the mozart 12 variations... man!!!!!

terrible.... can i not be a woman for 1 week in a month??? =(

what am i thinking now? i dunnoe... even though.. i more or less confirmed something.. but i'm still paranoid over that issue. but seriously, i wonder, so what if it's true? i guess i will still know what will the ending be.

anyway... went back to m'sia ytr... got new specs... got dunkin' donuts.... lalallalalaa ate popeyes today again!!! went to pick sis from T1.. hhahaha so, bring them to popeyes. well, don't know if they like it. sigh... seriously, for a particular case.. i really prefer separation than getting back.. it seems easier... i'm feeling so insecure...

-pulls my hair- can someone bring me away for one day??? jus one day... i need a break...

i found a guy.. whom.. maybe gals would like for a BF.. kekeke.. i hope he doesn't read my blog.. otherwise he thinks i'm in love with him... -shys- hahaha! oopsy. and that person is... Hazmi... kekekek!

ytr i received a call from him.. then he asked if i'm going for band... then i said i was.. and asked why.. and he told me that he's buying easter egg from esplanade. then he was like telling me that he's broke.. and jus to confirm i'm going lah.. so after church, kinda late le.. actually don't wanna go sch de.. but.. go lah.. before he kills me. then i realised, that the easter egg is for me.. i tot it was for a few of his friend. apparently he says tht he go esplanade jus to get that egg.... -faints!- then.. i remember that night when we are in cold storage, i walked pass kinder surprise.. then i was jus saying "easter is coming.. am i going to get an egg?" tht's all. i didn't expect himt o remember leh.. wht's more.. it's... 2 weeks ago le. keee.. i find it v sweet.. really... when we, gals only mentioned once and ppl rememeber it... most guys need us to say tons of time.. or even still need us to instruct de. lalalalala...

Thanks Hazmi.. small lil things really brighten up my day! you never fail to do that. whenever we can meet after work is my happy day.. coz i can yak yak yak.. hahahah.. keeee.. =)

a no. of things today.. some i jus can't remember..

1) i think someone has misunderstood me today afternoon.. when i say forget it.. i really mean forget it.. maybe coz i normally say that when i'm sarcastic.. but i'm not today. for how many times these yr have u remembered it was my bdae? so... actually... i am not having any feelings even if u really forget that date. and when i receive that sms.. i really tot u have forgotten about the date... so i was telling myself... forget it.. jus never mind loh... i aint angry or what. and yes i admit, for that few mins, i was really disappointed. but after that, i ain't. believe it or not, i alr accepted things, and i'm not sarcastic. maybe that's jus you. so if u still choose to ignore.. go ahead... and ignore forever. -small lil things.. means alot to me-

2) i finally get to meet up with han ying. i'm really happy. but... though i say i wanna scold her for being late for over an hour.. i don't feel angry at all.. becoz there's a book shop for me to read books..!! so.. yea.. read while waiting for her... had a great time with her... though time was short.. but becoz the 2 of us talk like bullet train.. hahaa we seem to talk about alot of things.. keee.. at last i feel comfy to talk to someone about something. *yak yak yak yak yak*

and as usual, when i'm out with han han.. i spent!! haha i will even if i'm not out with her.. the 2 things i've bought today is something that i wanna buy since long time ago le lah.. keeee

3) i think i'm feeling much better to be ignored, with appropriate communicate, then to cut like that. but i will accept it.

4) i don't know what. today, whtever is in my tots, is how am i going to pamper this person. like excuse me? it's only a good friend?? maybe more than a good friend, but definitely not anyone i like. sigh. anyway.. do'nt even know if he cares about it. nah.. hold on!!!

5) looking at one pic ytr.. i know i've got something wrong up in my brain this time round.. kekekke tsk.

after typing this post... my heart is aching.. i feel like crying... tears are gonna roll down.. tireness is feeling me as well.. han.. it's only an hour.. and i'm missing u again... other than her.. i'm missing 2 other person again. but am i missed? HA -sarcastically- lets talk about it yrs later.

hmmm... i wanna change my bed frame becoz i'm afraid of monsters underneath my bed... invalid?? i am really scare of it. since long ago.. esp this few days.. my concentration is not there.. i've been v blur.. what is happening to me?? -screams-

had a terrible gastric this afternoon... working was super duper busy today... ppl queued for it... peak is here!!! suddenly, when i was working today... i miss the feeling of working with some ppl... though we seldom talk at work.. but it's not the talking that counts.. but that's gone forever, 2 of my best work pals are gone... gone gone gone... =(

been getting v blur recently... sighie... forgetful as well. bah! getting more uptight.. recently.. been making alot of mistakes...

i can't describe the feeling i had in me.. is it lack of slp that i'm imaginating?? or are my eyes playing tricks?? -ahhhhhhhhhhhhh-

~grumpy... slpt from 4 till 7+ and woke up in a shock. i keep having the tot that i was slping at night, not afternoon nap. when i woke up at 7+ i jump out of bed, coz i remembered that i was taking a nap, don't tell me i overslpt tilll midnight.. later i can't slp again... can anyone be more stupid than me??

mom will NV stop nagging.. why can't she practise what she preached. *^%^%$%^$*&) irritating. whtever... let her nag. can't be bothered. not in a good mood also.. maybe really tired. that's y

i've been missing alot of ppl... ppl whom i've met and lost contact with. ppl whom i'm still in contact with. ppl who are impt to me.

watched ms singapore too.. nth exciting about it. half the time i'm online doing my stuff and not listening.. what else?

i wanna buy andrea's CD.. should i buy? i wanna buy books and read.. i wanna go and do a lil of shopping. but... i'm too tired to do so, if not, no one go with me... BAH

i guess i did something wrong again today.. it's always me. why can't i do anything right? i'm a lil furious with myself now. for doing such things to myself.

*knock knock* is anyone there??? i'm posting for dunnoe who to seee....

tired tired!! i've nv felt so tired like today.... haven't been slping well these few days.. wht's more.. band camp started ytr.. slpt only at 1plus.. and that stupid haz.. called me at 2+ bah!!!! i was really really tired... today in band.. i totally dunnoe wht i'm playing... they moved on le.. i know.. but still.. i played the previous hymn... act stupid...

while playing certain songs.. my mind was filled with something.. thinking and missing someone.. i feel kinda hurt these few days as well.. but nah... that's only a lil of my time.. but i kinda had some fun during this camp becoz of something.... ~ ... but.. don't think it's a constructive one...

gonna move my ass back to sch later... to stay overnight there.. dunnoe wht's on for tml le..=x

harry's?? rasa sentosa??

sigh.. will an agreement be an agreement? will u say yes.. and in the end... give me some kinda excuse again?

pay day is not fun. it means paying off debts and bills... it's the first pay check i'm excited to take.. but not excited to spend.

i need sleep.. give me some....

Someday.. my prince will come.....

another off day for me.. =x keee.. ytr went to sentosa with rah, brian, leen, peee and andrew.. keke! kinda turn off leh... the sun greeted us with a big smile in the morning, but then, hid behind the clouds when we are there.. BAH!! nonetheless, it came out for about an hour?? kekeke... and yesh... got burnt... to think there's no color change at all! kekeke =x

working 6/10 like as if off ah?? still can go sentosa! keke.. anyway.. ytr's working mood was kinda bad lah... winnie pushed me to ans a phone call that she picked up.. long story sia!! bah! then met the... guy who's trsf to RRT from TGM... geeee i am not use to it.. so vulgar... what?? "ni papa de er zhi" (your father's son) wah kaoz... then what?? different working place got different working environment... of course u have to follow, then he was so sarcastic "ok lah ok lah.. i respect ur custom.. so this is how it is like to be in other country" kaoz!! shut ur bloody mouth up and work lah! ppl upgrade coach.. ask y so late then leave.. then he say late... -faints- it's an UPGRADE!!!! give ppl coach no., "this is ur coach no. u go up and take the bus" nv tell ppl the no. nv tell ppl where the bus is... win le loh.

these few days... been thinking of certain things.. not the usual stuff i'm thinking about... sigh.. i'm super paranoid over weigh issues too... i'm becoming a fatty bom bom... or am i already one?! hahaha...

is it becoz of me???

hahahz.. awhile ago.. i know what i wanna blog.. now i forgot.. old already le... i'm seriously thinking of perming again.. look old then old loh.. everyone calls me an auntie...

grumpy... i've been a grumpy melinda these few days... esp after work... the feeling inside me... will be terrible... nothing for me to think about and such... bah!!!!