sch 'reopened' today... slpt at 1 last night and wakie at 08:30h today (even before my alarm clock rang) did my OB hwk... touch here touch there.. left for sch at 10... nothing in particular happened in school today.. normal. had CIP and then OB tutorial... oh.. we postphoned our MIEC tutorial to saturday.. hehe happy tht Mrs Ng agreed to make the arrangement for us. hehe.. after sch.. rushed down to AESband for band.. hehe for dun la.. dunnoe y rush also. today... members shoes are lost.. again! but this time... not all are recovered.. i remember, that time, one person's shoe was lost.. in the end... 1 week later then recover it.. hahha! forgot how that person went home. hahahaha! so sick of all these happening... heheheheh! reached hm at around 19:30h makan.. watch tv, shower.. and here i am blogging later jie jie confirm wanna use com. feeling sad.. dunnoe to be happy or what... alot of thigns can change in the future... but i hope one thing that has been said won't be changed... i'm really looking forward to it... no words and express my feeling now.

yesterday... i rotted at home for the whole entire day... till noon.. my friends came over.. then we get on doing things that we are suspose to do... sigh.. actually expected it to be quick.. then can play (sounded so childish ya?)... who knows.. so damn slow... ended up finish at around 8 plus.. very late hor... what to do? then after my friends left.. i was so tired.. go and grab my dinner... shower... and lie on the sofa to watch TV.. till i slpt for a few mins.. had not been so tired tht i even slpt on my sofa for a very long time le...

i think ah.. my blogging like forever very pessimistic one leh! siao right.. i know.. i'm always this pattern.. that's y i dislike myself.. well, what can i say? i also dunnoe... =p

today is sunday.. yesterday is saturday.. oh man! what am i doing?! nuts... i don't know why.. these few days... got alot of thoughts... happy ones.. sad ones... stupid ones... impossible ones... sigh.. those who knows the story knows wha i'm saying.. (haha onle one person know...)

Friday had my last paper.. CIP.. kinda ok la... but stupid loh.. no need to read also know one.. sigh.. wasted my 3 days of trying to understand the textbook... nvm la... at least i learnt something from the TB... after test.. at about 17:00h.. i went down to AES to collect money from sarah to buy the music essential voucher... then reach town at around 18:50h.. went to buy.. then went to meet the guys.. we watched the 19:35h 13 going on 30 show.. well... i doin't agree that it's a very nice show... haha at the front few mins.. zenny and i were looking at how the actress dress... her oversized boobs and the small dress.. haha.. we are not pervertic! hehe.. then when we finish the show.. i met mr goh and mr yiong infront of more than words.. heheheh! then after which... we went to makan at the food stalls at the carpark there... i didn't eat.. see le also feel like puking... dunnoe why leh... then came home aso puke like mad... went to bed at around 02:00h

Sat: wakie at 8.50.. that Mr Brian Teo la! called me.. i was still slping.. then i gave very very blur blur voice (coz i jus waoke up mah) then i said something like... 'y you again' (haha coz tht time his sms woke me up too) thenhe was like.. 'sorry sorry.. you call me ar' siao eh! i was thinking..huh? i'm still slping how to call you... then he said sorry.. coz he saw the wrong miss call.. haha.. nvm la. wakie and got prepared for school... went back.. hehehe...

yesterday Mr Goh say me.. hahahah! say i always forget to ask him questions that i've asked over smses. haha! how can. he's always busy. in band.. i shouldn't ask. coz he is being employed to the teach the band members... not me rite.. so i shouldn't ask. when i got out and see him.. he's always talking with either mr yiong or the students.. can't expect me to be rude rite.. then he gave then comment.. then he bus came, then he said, 'we discuss this one monday.' then before he step onto the bus, again, 'MELINDA.. monday!' i was like.. ,'i'm notcoming back on monday.' then he said over the phone he will discuss, well, i've sent him my schedule. dunnoe if it fits his.. i really really hope that it fits his... sigh.. if not headach again.. will cry one...

then soon after, bus came.. went to town with siew ping and waikeen.. walk walk eat eat see see.. now.. aiming at a filas bag.. 40 bucks. grrr.. monry drop from da sky pls! then left them at 18:40h, and went to bedok for cell. reached home at around 11.. watched tv.. by the time i came online is about 01:00h.. lazy to update... =p *yawn* i'm still tired.. later ppl coming over to my place.. sigh...

Mood: dunnoe to be excited or afraid.. or even worried and stress

message for today: Dreams.. are highly unlikely to happen... STOP dreaming... and i really mean S-T-O-P!

gee.. actually today don't wanna blog one... but then.. let me blog le then go and slp ba... today again..wakie at 10.. didn't really study...eyes were very heavy.. so i went to play piano.. piano again?! hahahahaha... then started reading,.. trying to get thigns in.. played more than reading. the more i read.. the more things i discover i dont know.. hahah! then read read read.. hahaha! had cookies for both lunch and breakfast... bro don't wanna buy for me.. and i dont wanna waste time to go and buy also.. remembered tht i say wanna trim fingernails but haven't trim.. so i trim loh.. cut nice nice le.. then file.. from the 1st to the 10th finger... when i was fililng my last bit... i did it so fast that he metal thing of tht filer (or whtever you call it) jus cut right through my skin! wah! damn pain!.... quickly go and wash.. incase got alot of germ.. you see.. i'm filing my nails. then left for sch at 2.45pm... (played piano again before i leave.. had became a routine but today last finger pain pain.. can't play much). =(

today's paper was better than yesterday!! hehe but careless mistakes here and there.. grrr.. nvm la.. at least better than stats... then came home... trying so damn hard to read through CIP.. but my hrt is not there.. as usual.. hahah! tml going to town... with dannyboy... keith.. unsure about rui and faith... hope tht they are going... zenas is sick.. pray tht he's gonna be well.. heheh! hope that everything goes well ba... i shall go beddie now le.. it's not early.. hehehe.. tml last paper! sigh.. only CT... end of yr test confirm jia lat!haha

mood for today: okok la..!! hahahaha

message for today: let me think... eh... there's no point hoping...things won't fall from the sky.. it only happens in the movies... pray.. and get doen to it.. your 'hope' will be a reality!

oops... forgot..

Mood for today: stil moody, not as bad as yesterday
Thoughts for yesterday: yesterday is a lousy day... a lousy day are meant to keep away in dreams... when you wake up.. it's another day! no more lousy day... bright day instead! you are the one who created your lousy day... learn to pick them up (though i haven't master it)

another day had past... wakie at 10... studied CIP for an hour... then played piano... well, actually make full use of time.. in the end... didn't really get much into my head.. left home at 2.45 for stats test... well... it didn't so smoothly... everything was like hell! everyone studied like hell! except for me... well.. what can i say rite? i'm always the idiot who doin't studies.. (start to wonder how did i get my place in BFS in the first place) i understood nothiong of the stats paper... all my calculations don't telly... grrr.. so.. do i have a chance of passing? well.. i tell you.. i'l be the one who fail in my class.. what a big joke! it's an open book test and i can fail! goodness! whtever... i better give up on studies.. i ain't good in anything. when i say ntohing.. i really mean nothing.. oh well.. who can tell me what am i good at?!

enough is enough... i don't know what the rest of my 2 days will be. the more i think about my test.. the more i feel like crying.. well.. i'm telling myself, 'melinda... forget it.. forget about all your Uni dreams' i dunnoe how to face myself... i felt so ashamed! when i came back home.. i started with my CIP (stil at chpt one.. not easy leh!) then study MIEC... still got somethings to catch up... i think most likely i can forget everything.... then watched TV

argh! i feel like killing and smacking myself! whtever... i don't understand.. just don't understand.. what am i doing? tell me... no one had told me about what i did.. is it because they don't dare.. or i'm hopeless.. guess that's the case... is this the end of Melinda? argh! i'm back to my depression state i guess.... it's not very nice. and not very cool! it's torturing.. i'm feeling something i don't wish to feel... i don't know how to sort my feelings... i can't face failure... enough... i don't wanna fall... at times.. i think that heaven is playing tricks on me. one thing happen after another thing... i feel like shouting back, 'enough already?!' but i know that i will get a certain punishment if i do that. *letting out a BIG BIG sigh* What is expected of me.. i don't like to wonder aimlessly!

hmm just return from town an hour ago.. sigh.. don't ask me wht am i doing there when i'm suspose to study for tml's test.... wakie at 10am today.. called chris to double ask him something.. then he told me that both aaron and him are in school!!.. *piangz* we are suppose to meet at 12!! not 10!! hahaha.. nvm.. coz they wanna look for a project room. then i faster do my stuff and get out of the hosue le loh.. reached school at 11.30... look for them at the library.. and settle down.. and got down to study.. dunnoe y... i stare into thespace more than i study... beginning to worry... always regret that i didn't study hard. but then... it's like... i keep saying that i wanna study hard.. in the end did't.. i am not tht worried about tml's stats paper... instead.. im' worried for my MIEC... CIP i gave up... intend to study last minute... confirm fail! aiya.. i think have to retake module le la! argh! how?! forget it.. i totally got no more heart to study.. if i am given a choice..i will choose to give up studies.. and pursue music... sigh... so all these studies went on till 5.. really loh.. i don't think anything got into my brain (oops! almost spell brian again! hahahah same mistake everything).

When we got out of the library..it was raining... then i went over the other side of road to take bus... hmmm... go town cut hair.. then makan with sis. then came back.. what a life right? then took a cab home... i relay must complain about the cabby!!! SHA 6036! pls loh.. dunnoe if he is rushing for plane... rush here rush there.... wah! i was like telling my sister.. i don't wanna die today loh! he suddenly stop loh... wah.. then cut here cut there.. it's fast... it's cool! but then... he like didn't watch one loh.. it's not cook! it's dangerous driving! stupid!! wanna sream at him sia!! hahah! tht;s my day..

Mood for now: feel like crying... worried (as always for tests)

thanks for reading.... hope that you won't feel that it's a waste of time.

another day had past... woke up at 10 today.. (kinda late rite) last night sleep late mah.. around 1 am la.. then wakie... go play play piano for a while.. then started study my stats.... kinda worry for it as i'm still not tht familar with somethings... and i dislike time series!! alot of formulaes...
=( anyway... after tht.. in the noon.. i went to band.. sigh.. wasted my time... actually go there to lend them my lappy.. but in the end.. ended too late.. didn't use.... forget it.. lols... hahaha.. nothing interesting... after i left sch.. i went to plaza to buy makan for me and my bro as my mom went to hospital to visit my uncle... then came back, eat, piano, computer... and study a few mins loh... another short blog?! hahahahahah!... dunnoe..

i'm so pissed with alot of things going on somewhere ont he earth... i can't understand y ppl are like that man... stupid! jus becoz of some personally reason? and jus becoz you think tht you can be linent with that person then you forgot all about what you are suspose to do? well... i'm stating the facts! just like... all com. break down.. whtever la... not my business! grrr! oh.. my sister agreed on having wireless connection.. at first when i say. she was like 'you pay ar?!'haha
but this time diff.. she jus say.. hmm this is not bad. hahahah! okie la.. blog till here.. i'm still very vex over piano... sigh... no one give me advice.!

argh! i'm not thinking well today... well..hmmm wht have i done today? let me think... ok.. i pon church today... stayed at home... actually wanna go out.. but in the end.. stayed at home! hahahah! well... wht have i done?! let me think.. oh.. i've been doing paper quilling for the whole day and come out with something so damn ugly... eek hahahhaa color combi not nice. then sat infront of the TV and piano the whole day... hehe... actually today boring day la.. nothing much.. :p.... sorry peepz... didn't blog much.. wasted your time in reading.... sorry!

gee.. today.. i'm feeling much better le... today morning.. wakie damn early.. 7.30am... hehe then went for band prac.. haha actually i slpt at 2 am yesterday.. then who knows i woke up so early.. heheh somethings happened in band made me kidna pissed... during sectionals... i taught the seconds.. one weird thing.. i dunnoe y... i nv once taught like how i taught today.. jus.. unlike the normal me.. after band prac..i went to school to study.. hehe tot tht jian wen will be there. coz he's the one who suggested to go back to school, while melinda insisted to go esplanade and he don't wan.. hahaha. then not long after i reach sch (they were in the school library's cafe) .. i said tht i was hungry.. so was aaron (anyway.. only aaron and chris are in school) so we pack up and walked to KAP and makan... hehehe... while eating... there was a party going on... and whenever the children cheer... my 2 dear classmates.. they will cheer with them.. hahahah! i was so pai seh! covered my face with those notes.. when they sing bdae song.. the 2 also sing along with them!! hahahaha... we tried hard to concentrate...

hahah aaron very poor thing.. haha! coz while studying.. it's either me or chris talkng to him.. he was like.. talking none stop! hahahaha! poor him... but he also got study a tiny bit. then at around 4+pm aaron say tht he can't go on with econs.. changing to stats.. and he's not concentrating... so are chris and I.. so we decided to go to bukit timah plaza to print soemthing.... talking about BTplaza... aaron told me about a piano shop..

so the first thing that we went to the plaza is to go popular to find my pen refill, unfortunately, don't have... then we went to the piano stop.. was having sales seh.. hahah! aaron is interested in the digital piano... so he asked about it. while melinda and chris walk around the shop and see see loh...hehe wanna get my pedal 'clothes' but then they didn't sell.. instead.. the shop owner recommended us a piano.. tht he said to be his house brand.. and the design themself one their small parts inside the piano is same as wht the grand piano has... indeed.. i don't deny that it's tone is not nice.. is was fantastic.. aaron played on the piano and say tht the touch of the piano is not good... hehe so after we went out of the shop.. i went to check the directory. cozi know tht someone has told me before that music essentials is there.. instead.. i saw a guitar shop. knowing that aaron is looking for guitar.. so we went.. hehe cool shop.. all guitar... then aaron had fun loh.. i had fun too..the shop owner was the winner of the s'pore guitar festival... and he play for me the stairways.. so nice! hahahaha than left at 7pm to head for bukit timah shopping centre coz there isn't any photocopying shop at BT plaza.. heheheh! hao ba.. when i came back.. i jus go and look and look at my piano.. see see the diff with the one tht i saw... haha ok/ have to go.. help brian with something... blog tml.. tata

i'm feeling worst then falling out of love now.... it's better to kill me now.. i guess i'll feel better.. what are all these going through in my mind??? who holds the answers to my questions?! How am i going to solve thing mess? gosh! i wanna cry.. but no tears flow out... why do i fight so hard? i can't take it... seemed small.. but my concern is BIG... wht am i to do?! how i wish i can stop asking this question! moodless for everything now... didn't have anything for dinner... no appetite... i think it's all my fault.. i landed myself into this... i had enough...

hi peepz... didn't blog yesterday.. was tooooooooooo lazy to.. anyway.. yesterday was another rotting day... in front of the com... doing my CIP... then study my MIEC.. sigh.. i can confirm now.. when i study.. no one should approach me.. if not, they will get it from me.. hmm don't ask y.. normaly reaction...

i'm currently in the sch's library.. came to sch actually to study and do my last touch up on CIP and submit one.. but who knows... touch up and everything.. then helped hui qi for her dreamweaver... then 5pm le.. time really flies.. i came sch at 9.. and now.. i'm totally worn off! having a headach... badly need to rest.. but as usual.. i doint' take naps.. what's more i'm still in school now.. then tonight still going out with jovina they all... how i wish can reject them.. i'm totally exahusted! grrr... tonight dunnoe to reach hm le.. i dunnoe y... but these few days.. i've been feeling very very sad... no one understands... not tht i'm saying tht you peepz can't understand human hearts.. it's just that... it's with my music... alot of ppl wll say, 'chey' but it's not the case to me.. it's my life... maybe i'm just thinking too much about it.. but i dunnoe wht's with it.. i've decided to change a teacher (as mentioned in my previous entry) but.. i need to ensure tht i get a correct teacher.. wanted to employ one of my **** but then... i think he don't even have time for me.. only like sometimes go over **** place and play play... still ok la.. but not for long.. i also dunnoe how to open my mouth and ask.. very pai seh.. don't have much friends learning piano too... so... how to get goood teacher? mom can't afford much too... :( what shall i do?! i'm confuse and sad? who's there for me? *honestly feel like crying*

hmm.. yesterday, was so angry about the blog.. i write finish the whole blog le.. then can't be published.! well.. i think it's alwasy the case rite? then very fed up and don't wanna retype le... so.. jus forget about my posting yesterday! yesterday was a confusing day for me... didn't know to change piano teacher or not. so i asked advice from mr goh... but who knows.. instead of telling me, 'you decide', he said,'adviced you before, change it if youhave a choice'. didn't realise tht he advice me before... but somehow it's true la... one piano lesosn ½ hour.. learn wht? she keep stacking so much new piece for me. even ask me to do cadenza... for heaven sake, i don't even know what is that! i asked my friends.. all of them tell me that they don't know.

so, after listening to mr goh's advice.. i think.. i've decided to change a piano teacher. but then i dunnoe where to get a good one.. that don't cost as much too! difficult... i have a feeling that i would want to give up again... *feel like crying* where to find another teacher?? though i know tht there's one teacher.. but i don't know if i should approach her... i need to know how she works first. i don't wanna emply one teacher. then in the end.. not my type also. What should i do? i feel like appoarching someone that iknow. but then.. i think confirm cannot one. and i also dunnoe how to open my mouth.. what should i do.. tell me.?! i'm scare & confused... HELP!

tried to blog yesterday.. but it was unsuccessful.. so i didn't bother to rewrite and blog. so forget about what i wanted to say yesterday! had been so confused with regards to my music lessons... to change of or not to change teacher.. in the end.. after consulting Mr Goh, i've decided to change... i was asking mr goh for advise.. but who knows.. he told me tht he had already told me, change if i have a choice... come to think of it.. though this teacher can realise my dream (which is to perform)

melinda melinda melinda melinda melinda melinda melinda melinda melinda..... okok! i admit.. i'm bored... i'm so guilty ok! it's study week holiday and yet i didn't study! wht's this... aiya..! very vex now! y can't i study.. instead of studying.. today i went back to AES for band and then went to citylink.. ate delifrance... =) heheh crap alot while eating.. hahahah! actually wanna go esplanade one. but in the end didn't go. don't ask me y.. i got no idea too... then went to HMV.. hahahaha! got myself a CD... Mozart's piano sonata.. on sales la.. kinda cheap.. hahahah! my sister was so shock loh.. she said tht it's cheap.. but then she's scare tht i'll play it infront of her.. she buay tahan... then now.. i beg her to let me play it../ hahahah! and finally she agreed! hehehe listening to mozart's sonata in C major... KV545 heheheh! ok la.. also dunnoe wht am i going to do tml... i'm confused.. not becoz i dont' know wht to do tml... but over other thigns.

gee... jus finish showering... heheheh! yesterday though came back early from cell group, but then was watching TV.. so didn't update. ;p yesterday went for cell group... kev and u.pak fook can't go... so.. only left with the youth to manage the whole cell group, grace is suppose to do the sharing.. who knows.. in the early noon.... she called and told me that she's not going to go! sigh.. really got nothing to say le... then we have to look for another person to open door... in the end.. it was charmaine who helped us... hahah! then i brought forward the cell... to 6.30 coz initially i'm going to have dinner at Petals with a few friends.. who knows.. fully booked! then jus bring forward... heheh! tht's y i reach hm early mah! cell was fun yesterday... started off by singing praises... then while waiting for szemin to come.. we played corny games... which are really corny.. and andris was so blur... (coz one of the games is meant to make ppl blur). sze min then came around 7.30.. we played one more round off games.. then got down to sharing/devo whtever you call it la. then while wrting on the board... the whole whiteboard fall onto me.! goodness! *pain pain* then tht andris... her first reaction was to run away... then we labelled her as the unhelpful one...! hahahahah! i was so mad loh... kanna hit already then can't stop laughing... like crazy idiot.

but was kinda disappointed with yesterday.. i didn't do a good job... =( nothing to say about it.. then today.. as usual.. went to church.. thinking tht andris could help me with my cadenza.. but she don't knowwht's tht... nvm loh.. then i asked shunwen... he also say he dont know.. then ask me to go and borrow books and study them. i guess they don't want me to be to dependent on them ba. then during bible class... shunwen siao... he took 2 pizza and one garlic bread (if i didn't remember wrongly) walked into our class.. and parade from one end to another end.. guess tht he's trying to make us jealoused by. but no use la..! hahahahh! after class, went for lunch.. then i left...

on the bus.. got nothing to do. suddenly thought about my book that is with brian.. so i called him and asked where he is... if at hm then ask him to bring me the book. but in the end... i went over to his block.. then we discussed alot of things. then went to plaza and got my siblings and i LJS... and reach hm at 7pm... hehehe.. then after dinner... here i am! updating blog.. seemed like very long entry today..! hahahah.. okie la..! i go and do my thigns le... my condition is getting from bad to worst. =(

Morning everyone! goodday! hahahahah! sicky hippo updating blog... sigh... fell sick yesterday... nv been like that before... coz i was so blur yesterday! practically not concentrating on everything! yesterday, went for the performance with band at CHIJ bukit timah. hmmm... woke up at 8 yesterday.. then suddenly mr yiong sms me.. 'hey, you are performing today ya?' then i was so shocked.. hahah but then i think is some communication break down ba... then i left for CHIJ...

after which i go sch for S&W... dance sports... hahah! why is everyone so surprised when they know that i'm in dance sports? then nvm.. after tht got peering tutoring after which, the mentoring interactive session... haiyo.. from morning till night.. i dind't eat anything.. jus a tiny bit during tht mentoring session. i think i'm sick becoz of not taking care of myself =( today stil got cell group, i'm the song leader.. also dunnoe if i can sing.! ok la.. i'm still blur blur now... update later when i feel better ya? hahahha! cannot tahan

another new day! hmmm... am thinking what have i done yesterday.. ok yes! i had sch.... first was stats tutorial.. hahaha during the tutorial... from stats we talked and shift attention to sports... haha as usual la.. in mr ong's class confirm like tht one then mr ong asked if we are interested in windsurfing.. hahah! then everyone in the class accept for 2 not going loh... heheheh $30 for 2 days..then get cert.. so excited! hahaha non swimmer is going crazy! hahahah! then went for mark's lesson.. forever boring! but this time i listened! hahahah! then after tht went to holland V to makan... most ate katong laksa.. but then i don't feel like eating spicy.. so ate nasi lemak.. eek! not nice one! don't ever eat it loh.! ahahhaha! then after lunch we went back to sch for econs... and finish off the chpt of productivity and cost... according to the lecture it's the most diff chpt... really diff loh... now trying to understand it. then after tht went for the SPIN course meeting... then off for piano...! boring rite....

okie.. what about today? nothing new la.... got back my CIP project's grades le... presentation we get C+, contents B.. sighh..... bad la.. kinda satisfy le... cannot expect much loh... then went for OBcom tutorial... today TTS about child abuse.. nothing much to talk about la..! hahahah! then finish at 1pm.. i went bishan to meet grace... then andris called... saying tht she wanna come also.. then she came along loh.. hehehe we ate delifrance.. *yum yum* then walk walk.. actually say wanna buy all 3 same rings one.. but then i already got one le.. so no use... coz play piano i also don't wear. if not the ring will hit my keys. then walk around. then we saw one bag... we all like it.. maybe buy loh. hehe 10bucks... hahaha! dunnoe la..! =p see how...

this week end got cell group. actually my class wanna go m'sia one. but so far, no news. so don't bother.. go for cell ba.. tml got no LMS class.. coz teacher got medicial appointment. sigh sigh sigh! what am i thinking? i'm nuts.. am crazy hahah!

hehehe.! actually wanna update earlier one.. about 6, when i jus reach hm.. i was telling myself... 'hmm.. okie... i go and shower before i update anything.' on second thoughts.. it seemed as if i'm updating my blog recently after i shower! so i slowly loh.. bathe... makan.. watch tv.. do my stats tutorial then.. wa la! i'm here... updating my blog! sigh... jus now do stats till i wanna die... probability... wah! this chpt.. i leave it out for my O levels loh.. then now have to face it again.. jus agar agar do loh... wht to do... but i didn't complete.. coz i don't think some of the qns are related to last week's lecture...

i think i very suay... my stats tutorial not good one.. mr ong poh leng.. he only copy blindly one leh... tht time in tutorial.. jus becoz my friend got do her work.. then she jus double check her calculations.. then assumed tht it's the correct ans... coz a few of my classmates got do mah.. then the ans happened to be the same.. but the one on e board is totally OPPOSITE! fine! so they asked la...then the teacher say ours wrong... ridiculous... we are so sure tht we are SO SO SO right loh.. then argued.. then my teacher realised tht my friend's formular is wrong.. ours then is correct...! sigh... like tht my stats die la... he also our lecturer! sigh!!! =( but i shall try my best!

hahahah! today actually wanna skip OB.. but didn't.. hahahah! lucky didn't ar.. coz tht LOL calling for class rep.. tht i class rep mah... heng.. if not later when she check the attendance sheet and find it weird... hahahahah! today i'm very tired.. don't knoe wht.. i slpt at 10 last night... but still very tired... maybe slpt too long?! hahaha! tml still have piano class.. dunnoe.. i dread whenever there's piano class dunnoe y la.. jus kinda fan about it.. she jus flood me with so much piece each time to prac!!! got old one le.. then add 3 new songs... then i still got to do hanon.. and tht recital song?! aiyo!.... try la... but at certain point.. how i wish i'm smarter... y am i so stupid... piano only mah.. music only.. but yet... im' still so slow... can't even remember theory well. argh! i feel like giving everything up! only if i'm a brillant child like mr. goh... have of his brain i will also be happy...

music... music... music...

katherine and me

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hmm show you all this pic.. hahha! i love it ALOT... but im' not a lesbian... jus think tht it's nice

katherine and me

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hmm show you all this pic.. hahha! i love it ALOT... but im' not a lesbian... jus think tht it's nice

hehe.. just came out from shower... went kayaking in the morning with a few church friends at east coast... it was so FUN.. jus imagine.. i none swimmer kayaking? haha.. tht's me! too bad loh.. i don't know how to swim though i learnt when i was young... kk.. don't laugh at me ar... first time kayaking... not a bad experience.. hahah! we are deciding to go dragon boating next time.. even better right! tht time band went once... so fun... looking forward to it.. hahaha.. but weird eh.. i kayak le... then hand not pain.. instead... leg got muscle pull! hahahah.. you know ar.. jus now when i was in the open sea... suddenly.. leg crump.. siao eh.. didn't try things like tht before.. gave me a fright. then after kayaking we ate at the food centre.. then i went to Grace's house.. becoz uncle khiaw hui is going to yishun..t hen ask him to give me a lift.. hahahah! then here i am... back hm uodating my blog...

anyway...yesterday didn't go for the fireworks... missed... went for my granduncle's(whom i called ah gong) funeral. died of liver cancer.. sigh.. lot of feelings went through me during the funeral service and stuff...wanna cry.. but held back.. if not they say i siao.. coz i'm counted as a long distance relative to him le. but then he used to dote me.. (actually he dotes on every kid)... but memories are there... he had went back to the lord's hand... i should praise the lord.. not cry... anyway... today is national day.. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY...

hmm... feel fresh after one hot shower... had been so stinky after tht band performance.! hahahah... today, went back to help with the band's performance at senja there loh... it's a dunnoe wht national day thingy la... know tht? it's at the open place opposite my piano teachers place... (dont say i xiao ti da zhou la) but then.. really eh.. very scary.. wht if she walk down? see my face i wanna die.. dunnoe y.. jus don't wan her to see, thought she knew tht i was from band.. told her all about it. ok... as i was saying.. the performance... everything went alright la.. but kinda disorganise someway somehow. alot of things happened... hahah! some funny.. so jus ridiculous(hahah i love this word so much.. but i don't think i spelled it right for once!) wanna know wht happened then ask me la..! it's so damn ridiculous... hahah! can't stop laughing... *haiyo!*

hehe.. okie..then after that... went to timah to eat with a few juniors, jasmine and ai xian... jie ying loh.. wanna go home... sigh.. eat till now then come hm.. goodness! i think poly is getting me siao.. hahah coz tht jasmins koh they all la... everyday's thinking not straight one! then today.. talk to me junior... also ba ta men de hua think the dirty way! hahahahah! siao liao!! but ok la..! now choon asking my to do grp evaluation.. i'm T-I-R-E-D!!! sigh! doubt im' going to church tml. i'm naughty.. haha pon church.. not going for choir either... shunwen must have something to say le... =( whtever the case ba.. can't be the least bothered... i'm still stuck with some decision making about tht too! sigh. but then.. tml night i'll be going for the fireworks with my poly classmates.actually agreed to go with sec sch friends.. but then not many ppl wanna go.. so forget it loh.. hehe... okie la.. Hippo going to slp le.. had a really long day... Goodnight!

Here i come.! ha! i think it has been like so long eversince i last update? okok! stop cursing and swearing at me ok! ok.. well, i'm mad.. as always... i think i belongs to IMH? hahahah! okie.. nothing much have been happening lately.. jus school school then come home loh... hehehe!

ok! i have something to say man.! starting of school term.. i actually dislike econs so much and love statistics! but it's the total opposite now man! i love econs like siao.. and dislike stats like no body's business.! okok!... just finished a few projects... CIP... OB... OBcom... don't talk about it man.. it's OVER! allow bad memories vanish! hahaha!

Last weekend... Yio Chu KAng symphonic band had their concert in VCH... well, i went... with ex conductor, Azre, and one of the YCK senior, Dawn. I don't know what to say about their concert... i guess you all also not interested rite?heheheheh! see! i know. their concert reminds me of mine... the one that i fail to play well... =( now.. i've got a recital to work hard on.. it's somewhere is month.. but i don't know the day / date(as usual... piano teacher don't wanna tell me) have to work hard loh.. this time.. selected a piece tht i like.. but kinda diff la..! it's entitled, 'Song of india' hey! it's not the national anthem hor..! it's getting on quite well (i'm glad) just have to work hard on the expression and pedal works.

Life is so bored... why? has been on my down side recently. don' know what happened. weird isn't it... (haha i'm not going to start on my principles again... relax). ok la..! i try to blog frequently okie? sorry guys! i've to go and write my card for Andris le... though it's not her birthday.. jus wanna write her an encouragement card.. she's feeling down too.... see ya guys.!