I'm blessed! why did i say so? hee.. i discovered that i'm so blessed with so many things... i'm blessed with a roof above my head... i'm blessed to have my own room, i'm blessed to have my own piano (i tot my dreams are over eversince my organ died on me)... i'm blessed that i'm born complete.. i can't imagine wht if i'm bored incomplete? i'm blessed! that i have friends with me... i'm blessed tha ti've got no boyfriend (though at times i want one.. AT TIMES...) i'm blessed... that i've got my own laptop... i'm jus so blessed.. but i didn't realise it every min and sec of my life.. instead.. i complained my way through... everyday.. not treasuring wht i had... well.. ppl jus take things for granted.. but i don't wan.. i wanna realise them.. and treasure them... alot of thoughts are going through my mind.. hee.. don't worry.. i'm not being pessimistic tonight.. i'm optimistic instead!

today.. i was stuck at home with "ALL MY PRECIOUS" projects... i'm driven mad by IEF... and then... FMS.. i'm like multi tasking everything... AHhhhh.. i dunnoe if my IEF presentation slides will earn me marks... my grp is doing it kinda differently compared to other groups ba.! boo! argh! y can't i have clearer mind now? -taking a deep breathe- SIGH... well well.. i've to carry on and move on! i was awaken by the buzzing sounds of my HP again... and it's like... 5 different ppl sms me at the same time loh.. but the day pass very fast sia... i'm stuck with projects and project.. sicko! anyway.. other than i'm blessed.. i dunnoe wht i wanna say now... heee..

i'm still quite affected by the jeremy calling me "brian's mom" thingy... sigh.. anyway.. i dunnoe y i get so easily affected this time round... quite a no. of things today sia.. ahaha.! project in the morning and shopping in the noon with Wan Ching, Charmaine, Wendy and Jasmine Lim. haz... we went around suntec then to orchard... while on the train from citihall to town... they saw this gal with a jacket.. then they tell me " hey! melinda.. got ppl can fight with u liao" so i was wondering what are they talking about and i looked at her, she was wearing this very low top and could see the top lace of her bra... haha.. so i looked and realised wht bra she's wearing... triumph de.. so i said "eh.. she is wearing a push up bra eh" then i dunnoe if she hrd or something.. she alighted.. maybe she jus wanna alight de ba. i was kinda pai seh hahahaha... then we carried on shopping loh. time passes super fast loh! we met and 2.30.. the next moment.. it's like... 6.30pm loh.. hahaha all the laughter.. it was so fun.. dine at Aijisen.. the food standard really went down alot loh. ingredients give so little only.. after dinner.. continue to shop again! hahaha.! bah! i saw some skirt and bag i like. oh yar! talking about this! i bought this puma skirt at suntec.. haha! no one could believe how much it was loh! hahaz.! i finally went to the puma shop at taka.. nothing much leh.. not wht i've expected it to be like leh.

everyone of us went sep ways after shopping... i took a bus... smart melinda.. wait for 700A to come.. even 171, for the first time.. i see it's damn pack.. i dunnoe y leh... anyway.. while the bus was on PIE, i looked out the window and into a merc car loh.. then i saw a lady leaning on the driver.. like hugging him.. i was thinking "wah.. so dangerous" then the next thing i saw was that the gal sat up.. so i continued looking in there loh.. nothing to do anyways.. then suddenly! the drive took off his belt, unzip and took out his you-know-wht... i was shocked of course.. but burst out in laughter.. the couple who was sitting infront of my was laughing too... then the lady in the car jus lean over with her hand over then you-know-what thing. sigh.. i wonder.. do they ever know that there are ppl like us looking at them? it's like life... u do things thinking that no one will know.. actually they are wrong.. ppl can seee.... once again.. i'm bored in the night.. pondering about somethings that i've kept to myself.. maybe a few of them knows... confidence running low currently... guess i'll be alright tml.. haha.. as always.. tend to be negative in the night... i'm going le.. bb

i was going through all my CDs... and found my all time fav CD... by Celion dion.. i dunnoe y.. but i like one song alot.. i like it's lyrics

Then you look at me

Laugh and cry, live and die

life is a dream we are dreaming

day by day i find my way

look for the soul and the meaning

Then you look at me

and i always see

what i have been searching for

i'm lost as can be

then you look at me

and i am not lost anymore

people run, sun to sun

caught in their lives every flowing

once begun, life goes till it's gone

we have to go where it's going

Then you look at me

and i always see

what i have been seaching for

i'm lost as can be

then you look at me

and i am not lost anymore

and you say you see

when you look at me

the reason you love life so

though lost i have been

i find love again

and life jus keeps on running

and life jus keeps on running

you look at me and life comes from you

i'm listening to one voice now.. now the barry manilow de... heee.. had a super boring day today! but happy. the light slper melinda was awaken by her HP's vibration loh.. heee... did house chores today.. hee.. think mama gonna be happy that i'm doing it! Bah!. rot till i go back to AES... sigh sigh.. let me skip that portion.. if not i will talk nonstop. anyway.. i was kinda feeling bad lah.. i was so strict with my juniors jus now.. no wonder they say play with me very stress de... y? i dunno! haha don't ask me.. i think i'm waviering with my pop vs eff le (aes ppl should know wht i'm tlaking about)

oh yar.. so sad loh.. today... brian told me " jeremy tot that u are my mother" i totally diao.. this thing is hurting me more and more can.. can some one tell me y i'm so... mature looking or.. so auntie looking? i don't wish to.. i don't think i need to go and look for guys who are older liao (haha.. ppl who know me knows that i say that i prefer older guys) i think.. guys of my age.. younger or older by a few yrs are impossible liao.. later when we go out.. they think that they are going out with aunties.. or their.. jie jie.. it's sad loh..

met up with grace for dinner jus now... didn't meet her for so long le.. hee! her hairlength is only abit longer than mine now! hahaha.! she's gonna cut it like mine de le.. we chat quite abit.. maybe coz she's open ba.. though she at times got attitude.. but still quite fun to talk to loh.. heee.. at least.. she knows wht i'm thinking at times.. then we'll laugh over it... hee..

that's all i have.. it's a boring nite.. sigh

Who does not want a fairytale ending... but like wht i've stated.. it's a fairytale ending... it's hard to make it happen. i jus watched finish princess diary 2.. i'm kinda outdated one lah... jus now watched my BF is type B too... wondering why am i so free?! hahahaha i tell u... today i suppose to have spanish IS at 1pm... so i went to sch.. climb up the hill.. to only see a note on the wall that states "class cancelled" haha! go sch for nothign sia.. so i came back.. on the way.. met hung jip, my neighbour.. in NP also.. so i was complaining how bored i am and no VCDs to watched... so that kind soul offered to lend me his lappy coz inside got alot of shows.. but then i don't wanna bear that heavy reaponsibility to tc of his lappy.. so i came home and brought some black CDs to burn... hahaha.. and i killed my noon with those shows.. hee... he's a kind soul man.! hee.. but he nv fails to call me a dumb gal.. Bah! my BF is type B is also a nice show... some of my friends say it's not worth it leh.. but i think it's ok lah... i seldom go to the movies anyway.. haha.. concert tics are cheaper than movie tics... which do u think melinda will go?! hahaha!

i got back my IEF paper... only scored 63/100.. thank God already.. not high.. but as long as i don't repeat modules bah... ytr we went to wendy's place for project... wanna go adam's road to makan de... but we over shot... heee.... i noticed the hawker.. but didn't know if that's the one that they wanna go.. so i didn't tell them.. coz they look as if it's not, so i tot it was other hawker (street directory's breaking down) but who knows.. only after the bus has passed.. then wendy was like "i think we overshot" hahaha! so we walked back anyway.. and took a cab to her place... on the way.. we ordered canadian pizza to her place... ever single min is not wasted.. haha! not long after we reach her place, the pizza man came.. rang the door bell... wendy picked up the phone and asked him to hang on(she stays in private housing... that's y got phone) but in less than a min.. the man rang again.. so all of us were commenting that he was impatient... wendy went out.. and came in empty handed... so i asked y... know wht she said? "oh.. the man say he rode the wrong bike out.. the bike he rode out was w/o pizza... i do'nt understand how does such a thing happen loh.. where got deliver man take wrong bike out? hahaha.. but he came back like 10 mins later and apologise to us... haha.! wendy said that he's funny... keep saying sorry. Bah!

i guess i'm going to have a boring thurs night ahead.... no one's at home.. only me and my bro.. hee... did half of my IEF project jus now... continue later ba... tml no sch also.. sianz sia... hee.. i'm madly in love with my piano... AhhhhahHHHhhh.. nuts.. not as if i don't love it in the past.. i do.. but not as much.. it's my hubby!! Bah! but hor.. sianz leh... i'm running out of things to play with my current ability.. haha! i also dunnoe wht i'm able to play and blar.. i think i'm still at grade 3 or 4 standard? dunnoe bah... this might be a disadvantage of not taking gradings?! heee... =p

Good news? i got 95/100 for AAA 39/50 for FMS... but i wanna scream.. wht's the problem with people?! y do have fixed thinking?! i've got a friend who got 97/100 for AAA, 34/50 for FMS.. and wht she says "melinda smart lah.. always so high marks.. blar blar" excuse me wht's the problem with all of them?! she's got higher marks than me... and yet such a thing?! jealousy?! wht's that.. nvm.. not as if i've warned her not too... i don't like ppl making that smart smart statement.. coz no one will admit they are smart... maybe one or two.. but i know it's not me. i really didn't study hard enough... that's wht i felt. my friends used 3 days to study.. i used 1 day... i felt so bad aabout it.. it's like.. wht's wrong with me.. ppl study 3 days.. i only 1 day.. blar blar.. i really don'thave confidence.. but when marks come out. it's like this.. it isn't my fault rite? y must ppl say such a things to me. yes.. it might be a privilage.. but it hurts me u know? maybe some of u think that i'm being kua zhang.. but it does hurt me... i'm NOT smart... and i don't think i am... stop saying i'm smart.. yes.. i may not be able to change their mind. but i expressed my feelings about me being said to be smart.

one of my class mates tell me that my teacher say that i did quite well for IEF... and there... my another friend... said "aiya... you got highest liao.. blar blar blar" hello?! teacher say quite well.. does it mean anything?! since sec sch like that.. Y?! i do'nt like it.. the worse thing came... even some of my good friends also tell me the same thing "u sure get ur As and Bs" hey.. wht does that mean? do they know that they hurt me by saying so? do they know how i felt... who doesn't wanna be smart? but marks aren't everything rite. sigh.. i bet no one likes this.. can some one spare a tot for me?! can stop talking about it?! i'm not being denial.. but fact... i don't like it.. it's making me cry... yes.. i'm emotional... but i don't like it... coz i'm not smart...

Anyway.. today becoz of IEF project.. i met Ms wong.. i dee siao-ed her.. ahaha classmates who are with me might think that i'm rude to her ba.. haha.. but it's outside of class room.. so funny.. she used to be skinny de... only till she go overseas and start loving beef and potato.. then i said "no wonder she looks like potato" haha.. so bad rite.. i know... but was fun.. in class she's attitude. but out kinda fun ba...

did project and went for monks hill concert.. sigh.. wasted.. next time i think i really don't wanna go for band concerts le it's like wasting my time and money. wasn't really good.. but was touching.. hahaha rah was so high during the concert.. siao siao eh! after that, we went funan to makan.. and tha mac staffs are so rude loh "next time come at 11pm ar(the time they close, we were there at 10pm)" in a sarcastic manner to andrew lee loh.. it's like.. u don't wan business then nvm loh.. so sarcastic. i ordered a SMALL milo.. it became a MEDIUM milo.. sigh. hehe! went home straight.. met Shawn on da bus.. haha so long didn't see him le. quite shock.. haha!

i felt as if the whole world is crashing down onto me... yes.. it sounded so "kua zhang" but it's true.. i can't come to terms that i've failed my project! IEF project! i cried, i broke down, i stand up again.. tried my best.. and i failed... nothing can make me feel worse than that.. tears came rolling down my cheeks like dunnoe wht... some kind of fountain? but i don't know wht to do.. i totally gave up... on my report.. according to my friend (who is holding on to them now) the teacher's remarks are "unacceptable, only about GNP and blar blar blar" wht's the problem! hello! u lecturers nv give us any guidelines....

I went to sch to only attend IEF lecture today.. Ms wong conducted it.. MUCH MUCH MUCH better than koh poh tee. at least she crack funny jokes.. not cold ones.. and is NOT sarcastic at all! explain till all of us understand though i'm slow at digesting. went to eat with fish after that.. and that's when i got a phone call about chris with regards to my project. i was freaking shocked... but didn't think much. only when i get back home... i serious am defeated this time round... i failed dunnoe how many dozens of projects when i was in sec sch.. it's like.. who cares... now.. y am i like that? it's another fail mah.. y do i take it so hard?! i didn't know... i don't feel like going for later's ensemble.. i wanna be quiet... i wanna hide away... i wanna be my introvert... felt so down...

To Brian and Celine: Thanks for those comforting words... sorry that i don't seem to take it... jus need some quiet time.. guess i'll be fine after that.. thank you once again.

ask me how many times can i blog in a day... i say.. many many... haha! it's really a boring day alright... wakie with bad dreams? with not-so-nice tv programmes... with some shocking news that i've found out that made me feel like crying coz i nv tot that this would ever happen to me. for all things... this kinda things... when i have no courage to face something... something even worse came out.. haiya... while telling peee i'm sad... she asked me to go to her blog.. and now.. i'm in for this baton game thingy... haha.. let me play along with her ba..

Total Number of Shoes you own: (let me go to my shoe rack) 16 pairs... oops! 4 flats, 3 court shoes, 3 sports shoes, one covered, one half covered, 4 heels. =X

The last shoe you bought: on flats.. coz i went out with a pair of not-so-nice-to-wear pair of heels.. so bought one.

How many shoes do you have underneath your work desk: none... not even working.. haha

Five people to whom I'm passing this baton: Celine, Liyu, Sarah, Wan Ching and Yee

hahaha.! actually kinda bo liao ar?! hhahaha but since i've got ntohing to do. i guess i jus play along... it's my last day of freedom before i get tighted up again. anyway.. eh.. sianz de... suppose to go overseas with my class mate on the 30 oct.. now can't go le.. got to go up to KL then to tai ping and penang for all souls day (or is it all saints? i'm always confused). so.. sorry le.. mum jus told me today.. SIGH... i wanna go with my class mates... argh... booo. haha.! BORING day

heee.. i've uploaded ytr's pics liao.!! hahaha i didn't have a goodnight slp ytr.... i woke up pespiring... i had bad dreams ytr.... one.. i dreamt that someone had gf liao.. dunnoe y.. it kinda affect me..i'm sad.. jus.. uncomfortable... sigh... well well.. wht's happening.. -do'nt think too much melinda- sigh.. that's the first dream.. i woke up after that... and forced myself to slp.. and so i did... and wht i dreamt of?! my passing IEF project by only one mark.. and my attitude tutorial teacher was telling me: "u better work hard for exam.. if not u are dead.." aiyo! it's like so terrible loh! why do i have such bad dreams in one night?! haha... i woke up... with a post test denial... i was asking myself... "wht do i have to study later? wht test do i have tml ar??" so siao rite? i am also diao loh.... so scary.. hee.. nuts liao nuts liao.. hehahahhae

leen, pee, brian, me and rah...


How i wish i can own ALL of them!

nice rite... heee... some of them reminds me of m'sia's new yr
From the top left: me, manda, her sis, pee, andrew. Bottom: cynthia, wei han, rah and leen.. brian's lost!! AAhhhh.. he's suppose to be next to leen. hee

haha.. wht are we doing man?!

heee...
hahaha.. guess wht we are looking at?! R(a)?! haha nahz...
they say i look retard here... hahaha
the below are all bo liao pics liao le.. hahaha

hee.. finally tests are over... ytr had my last paper.. FMS... hee. for those who studied.. it's simple... but for me? half bucket of water.. haha anyway... left early.. coz i finished early... then waited gor fish before we went town to collect her stuff.. makan... and shop... hee... had a great time ytr! was so fun.. making fun of jasmine.. walking.. cracking stupid jokes.. hee.. lamers..! haha anyway... we went to try the dessert stall which we ate in HK... shui liu shan... hehee... nice nice.. it's kinda ex lah.. i think fruits in s'pore are not as good as compared to HK.. thus.. we can't really say it's not nice... hee... i love their mango sago! it's like.. so yummy... -drooling- hahaha.! anyway.. we went home at around.. 11pm... actually jas wanna go pubbing de.. but int he end didn't.. yu wanna go home early.. but still, don't mind.. and i don't have the mood loh.. hee.. while coming back, at the bus stop.. saw one of my friend.. but i dind't go infront to acknowledge her.. if not.. later she tell her mom. then her mom will tell my mom.. all those auntie stuff lah.. sianz de..

today? today i went sentosa with peee, leen, brian and sarah.. sigh.. mother nature was not kind enough to give us sun today.. it rained the whole day loh... let us see sun for like.. 5 mins?! haha.. but then we don't care.. we sat there and chat... go down to the water.. eat.. hahah all sorts lah.. till about like... 4pm? showered and then go to the underwater world there... haha go there see see... omg loh.. don't call me mountain turtle lah.. but the sea turtle is really huge... and the sting rays are really cute... hahaha.. do i sound like some kinda sua ku? i think so.. haha.. after which, we went PS to makan.. and met someone.. whom i'm suppose to drop dead at.. but i didn't loh.. haha... then proceed to esplanade.. to see da fireworks!! its like so damn nice loh. omg.. ahahah i wanna bring home with me.. there's no words that can describe my feelings then.. it's like... i will jus stare... filled with so much feelings.. so NICE.. when we wanna leave....there was another round of fireworks.. thanks to peee... (she claims lah) we manage to catch it.. all of us was like.. omg loh! hahah.. and we are going back there on the day itself!! yayness! haha... went starbucks... drink and met up with cynthia and wei han... chat.. crapped... then saw david and.. kai ling. hahaha peee's reaction was SO SO SO funny... haha Bah.. after that.. walked to merlion's park.. hey.. that's my park.. there's me.. and mini ME... hahaa.. like the one in austin powers... Dr. evil and his mini-him hahaha.. so.. another laugh laugh session.. but in the middle of it.. i suddenly fall into silence... suddenly jus.. stop liao.. dunnoe y.. should be tired ba... that's y... while coming back home.. we kept treatin peee like she's transparent.. whenever she talk.. we will be like "hey.. did u hear someone talking? ghost ar?" haha so mean ar... sorry gal if we have overplayed... on the train.. i discovered that my left shoulders was redish and hot.. but kinda impossible to be sun burnt.. coz there's only ike 5mins of sun and rain for hours?! rah said that maybe it's due to my bag.. but then i didn't carry it on my left side... so i came home... showered and stuff.. sat on the sofa.. kaoz. it's kinda pain loh.. then ask bro to see.. he said kinda red.. walked infront of the mirror.. see... wah kaoz! it's ridiculous loh.. indeed, it was a burn... for nuts sake... 5 mins of sun got me burnt... great! hahaha.... kinda siao liao... hahaha...

another day had past... boring day of FMS.... i like yu's description of FMS.. FMS Module Sucks..! hahaha good good.! =x i slpt at 3am last night.. forced myself wo wakie at 9.30 to study.. and i did.. and dind't even have my noon nap.. -yawn- today was my dad's bdae.. seriously... i dont remember... and can i say i don't bother? maybe ba. how long have i not celebrated his bdae? the last was when i was 10?! i practically study my noon through.. and he playing his com through. he didn't cook curry for me.. coz mom asked him not to.. we went out to sakura for dinner.. his attitude was bad to mum... i don't like it.. maybe he didn't do it on purpose.. i dunnoe.. after makan.. go NTUC.. buy my curry ingredients.. and then i collected his cake from 4-leaves.. i'm jelaoused.. he got big cake.. my bdae only small small one.. boo! then i came home without them.. coz after i collected the cake.. everyone was lost.. so i left first... and the rest of the night goes on this normal night.. jus that we get to sing bdae song ba... to ppl who don't know wht happen in the past.. thinks i'm hrtless... but ppl who knows... will still think i'm hrtless.. but with differnt thinking.. maybe i care about him.. but i won't show it out...

on some sensitive topic with one of my friends... tears rolled down my cheeks.., but i'm sure i'm alright... but... am i really alright in the real fact? am i really okay? who am i? a gal who shows the real me? or a gal who jus show a front? sigh.. y are things like that? by saying this.. i'm not expressing pessimism.. but jus.. thinking... i don't think it's pessimistic.. haha remember.. pesimistic can be good and bad.. haha.! Bah

hahaha.. i was using www.dictionary.com when this thing came up... and i jus took the test.. indeed i'm kinda low IQ ar... considered that the normal IQ is 100? hahaha.. i bet if my friend do they will be better... i ben ben de... haha

Congratulations, Melinda!Your IQ score is 118

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

http://web.tickle.com/tests/uiq/index-pop.jsp?sid=2239&supp=Redswingline_Lexico_GROUPE5&z=

hee... i stole yu's skin.. =X haha.. thanks fish!! hee...

what a rotten day! woke up... and went for IEF test.. sucks! hhaha melinda is gonna fail her IEF!! i'm so sure loh... i look at the paper.. i diao.. "wht's this?! wht's that" then in the end.. those MCQ i dunnoel.. anyhow lai tick loh... steady rite? i thin it's the first time melinda's gonna be like that.. aft test.. went plaza to makan with jas, qi and wendy.... then came home to slp.. i discovered that i'm more and more like apig.. i seldom slp after noon nap de.. now leh? almost everyday also slp.. pig sia... hee.. was kinda angry lah... coz some ppl forgotthat we are doing project today loh... ARGH. nvm lah.. i'm speechless about it liao.. i don't wanna think about it. it's jus irritating.. friday's outing is cancelled... going out with li yu instead.. hee.! hee... was planning to go for either BBQ sting ray @ lau pat sat or the BIG BIG Han's and makan.. hmm.. wait till fri come then say lah.>! haha no one god mood to study FMS sia... so sicko.. 5 pathetic chpts.. i think all study hints and read through.. ahah.. that's wht i'm intending to do.. after one whole night.. i'm still at page 5 of the chpt one..! good rite.. hehe... during the night.. i got to know something that i don't happy about.. i can't jus it's angry.. jus.. those kinda u wanna do but can't do feeling.. kinda paranoid ba.. sigh.. temper's getting from bad to worse... hate it.. anyway.. haha nothing to say liao.. coz it's jua a plain and simple day.. hee.. tml got curry to makan! yay!

What are friend for? to treasure or to use them? good qns... i felt i was being made use by some friends.. only got things then come knocking on ur door. talk also don't care about ur feelings... at times.. i jus wanna live in my own little world. even the one whom i thinks knows me well gave me tell me something that he jolly well know i don't like to be commented on. well.. i know he don't have the tot... but still... i am annoyed by it... is busy an excuse not to care about ppl's feelings? if it's... i'm speechless. to all i know.. i don't like to be sarcastic.. i don't like to be mean.. most imptly.. I DON'T LIKE TO NAG!! y? y? y? y? i had enough.. i'm on the verge of crying again... stress... sadist.. anger!! all here.! i dunnoe if i had the right good friend.. i dunnoe if i regard a good friend as a good friend.. does he or she regard me the same way. i'm sick of all these like i'm sick of thinking of relationships. at times.. i dunnoe.. i always think that ppl do'nt care for me.. maybe it's true.. or i jus didn't realise... i always thing there's a big problem with me.. that i don't gain acceptance... i dunnoe wht's wrong lah! fine.. i'm attitude problem. i feel like nobody's child.. like i'm on earth by accident (i know it's an insult to God by saying that) but i jus can't help having the tot. i asked melinda who am i? my friends tell me MElinda lee jie hui. thanks. it's a good ans.. but i think i prefer an qns more than that. at times.. i felt alien.. no one could understand wht i talked... no one's there to support me... -i really wish i'm in the little world or melinda-

i'm kinda paranoid for tml's paper (IEF) i've been reading through... but it doesn't seemed alien to me.. but where got ppl study so fast one? there ust be something wrong rite.. i read.. and read.. it's like.. i'm staring into the paper liao... i dunnoe wht i'm reading liao... lucky... celine and wendy called to ask some qns.. then i get to revise and ensure i know that thing or theory. thanks to wendy... i noticed something.. if not i might lose marks tml.. i'm offically at war with Mr. Teng Jian Wen quarrelled with him today.. and wht he claims "i only ask u all a few qns and then u all bitch about me" sigh... a few qns? it's TONNES of it.. after which.. he said " told ya.. our class' gals have big attitude problem" omg! wht he meant? y not say he got attitude problem? i think i'm the only one in class who entertained him since yr one... (well.. ppl might say it's my fault again lah! since when it isn't, go ahead.. i'm not well liked anyway) now.. i really wanna jus tell him loh.. he's selfish to take up our time.. by saying "aiya.. u so clever one.. no need to study.. u ans my qns first lah" (it's 99% the same words he use..) hello? if i'm clever.. can pass not studying.. tell NP to issue me my certs now... since i no need to study also pass.. no need to be in sch liao.. sigh... anyway... alot of ppl tell me it's not worth to get angry over him lah.. now.. it seems like i'm so bo liao to blog loh.. i relaly dunnoe wht to study.. aiya.. tml i confirm got alot of stupid mistakes one... i'm not smart anyway.. sorry peepz.. i can't be optimistic today! i didn't wanna give a pessimistic post too... anyway.. i better get back to my notes le.. bb

hmm.. this is blur.. but i like it.. dont know y pics always end up like this when there's not flash
Me, my sis.. and Graceace...

the above 2.. i think no need to say liao rite.. other than melinda.. who can it be? gee.. all the pics are taken on the wedding night during the dinner at the Grand Corpthorne Hotel.. hee.. i love all the pics. but too bad.. only took a few.. if i know.. i take more.. seldom get to be so dressy... gosh.>! i'm vein.. hee... Bah.. hehe... was so happy that night.. =P

boo.. i haven't study for wednesday.. i can kiss the rest of my papers goodbye liao.. hee

today had FMGT.. it SUCKSSS sucks big time.. i'm on the verge of crying liao... sigh.. dont' talk about it le lah.. obviously it's not good.. next paper's on wed, IEF... hmmm... gonna study.. maybe later in the night.. now rest... jus went to amanda's blog... she did a personality test.. i was bored too... so i also clicked on the link and did it... and who knows.. this is the result.. :

The Mass CommunicatorYou have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

i was like.. WOAH... same as amanda sia.. for a second.. i was wondering... is that the only result to the "test" haha.. but i'm not that bo liao to go and redo with other ans lah.. hee... tonight, i'm going to do a mean thing.. i'm offically pissed with a classmate of mine.. Mr. Teng Jian Wen... pek chek! keep calling to ask work. not as if i'm unwilling to share... but he's asking all the things that are spelled out right infront of him! why didn't he see before asking me? why didn't he prepare first? WHY... and of course.. i got irritated and raised my voice at him. who cares liao.. i really pissed by him. even other classmates of mine called and asked the same qns he asked.. i also didn't flare up. guess i'm jus annoyed by him. today i went sch.. then hui xin come and blamed me, maybe jus letting me now lah. but her tone was kinda harsh. she said: "u lah! jian wen can't find u then come and look for me" WAH KAOZ.. great.. my fault... whtever. after today's test... i declare.. I'M SO NOT GOING TO PICK UP ANY PHONE FROM HIM! i'm pissed... and angry.. i'm sad... i'm whtever.. i can't keep calm now!

ARGH!! i'm irritated by someone now.. argh! but it's not going to affect my bloggin lah.. hee... okok.. today.. was suppose to wakie at 7am.. to go church.. as well as to pick up brian's book.. alarm went off.. and i woke up SICK.! bad sinus, head freaking heavy so i decided to slp longer and go during their break time.. adjust the alarm clock to ring at 8.30.. wakie at 8 once.. then still gong gong de.. wanna slp more.. took my phone again and adjust it to 8.45am.. but in the end. i wakie at 8.20am.. do'nt feel like going de loh... but becoz of brian's HARRY POTTER... i dragge myself there.. when i reached there.. the first person i saw was auntie lay see.. then auntie lay har.. then she was like "eh.. how come u got come. becoz of harry potter rite" say int hose kinda tone that i don't like loh.. i almost replied her "sorry loh.. melinda don't read harry potter" everything was as per normal lah.. Ting (from bangkok) came... hee.. after service.. there's this meeting going on.. youth are suppose to be there. but we didn't.. all don't wanna go.. hha then zhi xing came in.. tot tht we tot got youth class... then came down.. but the fact is that we didn't wanna go! hee.. then they distributed the books, potter lah... (anyway.. church is not a book stall.. do'nt ask me y i get harry potter there.. haha! ) stayed while.. then i left to meet brian to give him his book.. ahhaa i actually threatened not to give sia... i was like late for 45mins?! but he was later lah.. so nvm.. i do'nt dare to put the book in my bag.. i scare later spoil.. so i held by hand.. on the bus... out of curiousity.. i read he (i nv understand y ppl like potter) then the more i read.. the more engross i was to it..for that moment.. i don't feel like passing brian his book loh.. i wanna read.. haha.! oops.. i'm being contradictory again... anyway.. yup.. then went for lunch and came home.. nothing much since then le.. ecp that i fell asleep in front of the tv. (that shows how tired i was *hints* brian) didn't really study lah.. i dunnoe y am i slacking like this loh.. then jus watch tv.. come in.. peek at notes.. then tv.. till 9pm... then cook my dinner.. then back to my study notes.. staring at it as if i'm staring into the air.. hee... anyway.. then.. one person started calling me and irritating me... sigh... haha.. anyway.. my day today was short lah.. ntohing much.. gee... :P

jus came back from the dinner.! hha... was good.. food was great.. desserts are BETTER!! haha.. esp the chocolate truffle! gee... i left home after some arguement with mama at around 5.40am.. reached at 6.45pm.. supposed to go up to the room.. but the need some card.. so fine loh.. my sis haven't finish Su's make up, so i have to stand outside the ballroom... and the next thing i know.. JASON IS HERE>! kaoz.. i was praying so hard that he won't come and talk to me before my night is ruin loh! haha.. but he didn't.. maybe jus now from church he knows i don't really wanna talk about him.. hmm.. i don't like him leh.. but i think he's a poor thing.. kinda feel bad about it.. anywya.. then soon... curl came.. then rachel! FINALLY.. some one's gonna stay with me.. after my statue-ing for one hour... and felt like alien coz it's all relatives of the couple who were there first... anyway.. so ya dee ya dee.. haha. take pics... laugh laugh.. toilet... blar.. then time to go in!! everything starts from there.. then we saw the priest walking in.. and made a joke.. haha coz during the church wedding's recept, everyone was hungry.. so we "bu ke qi.." jus ate loh... then father came in.. said prayer... my food was still in my mouth.. others too.. then when finish.. with food in our mouth.. we said amen.. was damn irony lah.. so sinful rite.. haha.. anyway... so we were like "hey.. priest got come.. so cannot eat okay?! must wait till amen" haha... coz we are sitting rite infront of the buffet food... haha! lucky we are not seated behind.. if not have to walk all the way to the front to makan.. anyway.. when i went in.. i've got myself red wine... alcoholic de lah.. not those grape juice... (but i think it's the wrong choice) then sat there to chat with rachel.. about our pri and sec sch.. and ppl whom we have crashes on.. haha! till my sister came down (it's a BIG finally!) then soon after.. i got gastric pain le.. at first was kinda ok.... coz in the morning i alr got slight gastric le.. so i kinda know wht's gonna happen.. but i nv tot it would be so pain.. that i can't even walk properly.. it's so hard.. to bear with the pain and laugh and joke... i can't even lift up my leg to cross my leg.. that's how bad it was... then i bear with it.. it i really can't get up of my seat.. then got to ask me sister to help me take chocolate truffle =) thanks sis..! then at about 10+ went up to the hotel room.. pick up stuff.. then came back le.. dind't stay.. can't stand my gastric... but i had a wonderful time with my sis... it had been long since we last went out so happily... hee..

anyway.. brian told me tht his friend was in the church wedding jus now too.. i was kinda shocked.. coz i saw a no. of friends in the wedding too! haha.. but then i blur lah... didn't recognise ppl... i was talking to the bunch of friends of Ann (the groom's sister) one of them is my poly mate.. who knows. within that bunch... brian's friend was there... apparently i saw her before lah.. but can't recognise.. but also heng lah.. if not i need to hide my face in sch le... dressing wise is so diff from wht i wore to sch.. hee.. ppl who knows me know i dresss different when i'm in sch and when i'm out lah.. hee.! esp when i get dressy..!! gee.. anyway.. i stole my sister's limelight.! 1) by miggling around with her friends and became so chatty (y am i so chatty ar) 2) coz they keep saying i'm tall she's short.. and that's how the differentiate older and younger sis and 3) dressing wise.. wait till i upload pic le then u all know.... gee.. ok le.! it's 2 post in a day le! a lil too much le.! haha.. i've got to go.. stay tune.. ciao.. =)

yay!! wedding's over... yes! i woke up ontime (seldom i don't) but have to drag myself off the bed lah.. heee.. i got myself prepared.. and stationed myself front of the computer 15 mins after i wakie (why so fast? coz i don't make up!!). practiced ave maria.. was so pissed off while doing that.. coz i can't get the notes rite.. then i jus whack the piano... my mom was like staring at me.. but knowing that i'm pissed, she kept quiet. left home at 7.15am.. missed the bus... but i'm still early.. i reached church at 7.45am.. no one was there.. there are ppl praying in the service hall, so i jus went into the music room, but the speakers are not opened yet.. so i settled myself in a tiny whiny corner... i'm sure.. whoever looked in don't know that i'm there.. and will be shocked to see my there if they come in.. coz i hid myself.. haha so kua zhang.. i was sitting at the chair beside the hoor.. jus that it's not obvious ba to whoever who walked pass. hee... everyone was late..( or maybe they didn't see me there) monica was the one who "found" me.. haha.. then we start our prac by warming up to veron's voice... (she's singing solo for ave maria) hmm.. finally i played ave correctly.. :) prac goes on till father walked in.. and asked me to play addition songs for this and that.. PRESSURE!! haha... managed to do it. gee... but i wasn't happy about winnie... the commendator.. coz she wasn't there for the rehearsals.. then she do'nt even know how to songs will start... then it's like.. making my playing sucks.. but at some points.. lucky i manage to change quickly.. hee... but she also mislead ppl... hee veron was like staring at me.. with lips language "wht's the problem with her man!" then she walked over and said "i'm so going to tell her off.. " haha.! discovered that a few of my friends and poly mates are in the wedding.. oh gosh!! so pai seh lah! haha.. during the wedding.. i was freaking scared and angry.. the person who took over brian to be the music controller (whoever his name is) is so perverted! kaoz... was doing the responsorial psalm.. then he don't have booklet.. so i offered to share (normal rite... ) then who knows he touch my hand.. with those kinda look like wht i see on tv.. "oh.. u wanna share with me.. oh great.. can take advantage" look... that was the beginning lah! after that i was so scare.. didn't wanna share with him le... then i was paranoid with it... irritating.. ytr one.. today another one... wht's more ytr i was in tees and jeans.. i think some ppl jus... BLIND... sigh..

then i came back home.. was surprised that mom don't need to work today... online a while.. then wanna change and slp.. while changing.. i dunnoe wht's wrong with me.. i bang into the door of my room! so blur rite.. ytr i before i wanna slp.. i wanna rub my eyes.. who knows, i ending up boxing myself.. then today i bang onto the wall. i only managed to slp for 30mins.. everyone kept calling and smsing.. i can't slp... now.. i'm jus waiting for my show to start and then time to past then i go dinner le.. abit sianz.. don't wish to go for dinner sia... gee.. sigh..! ok lah.. logging off le.. when i upload today's pic le then i post here!! hee... cya..!

i've got to wakie at 6.30am tml..!! but i confirm slp very late de.. haha! hmm.. today first paper for common test.. kinda disappointed with it.. made a few careless mistakes.. lucky i'm not ACC student.. if not dunnoe which company wanna employ me next time le.. so careless de... gee... paper was at 11.. i woke up at 8.30.. read abit.. then off of my piano... then reach sch.. wah.. bth.. the teacher in the exam hall ar.. damn noisy... she scream here and there.. then it's like.. her voice very piercing one loh! irritating! so i started the paper. got stuck somewhere.. then continue to do before i look into the qns later... finished the paper within 45 mins... tell u loh.. LUCKY me...! i checked my paper... got one BIG BIG mistake.. hee.. lucky i saw it.. if not.. it's "yuan wang" de marks... check finish... no point staying.. so i left... was the first to leaft in my class... hmmm...

After which... wait for jas and qi.. then came home.. study.. piano.. then went out for the wedding rehearsal.! i must say!! i'm freaking scare now loh... i dunnoe wht will happen tml.. i'm so no confident.. but i'm sure... God will guide me through. HE didn't put me in this spot for nothing. But... hopefully i am calm enough... hee.. so.. hee.... -calm calm- hmm... i think the only piece i'm having problem is Ave Maria... it's like... keep playing wrongly... the rest was fine.. (thank God) *phew* hee... this time round... su wasn't late.. i was the one who's late... on the way to church.. saw bella's mum.. so chat chat.. (hen auntie hor) haha. we rehearse till about 8.30pm.. then we end le.. i left first coz wanna study abit... but in the end.. i'm online.. anyway.. while crossing the road to the opp side... suddenly i heard a very soft voice: "Hi miss, jus got off from work ar?" i was freaked out! then i turn to only see a late 20s indian man riding on the bic (not bangla) then he wink... kao!! i bth.. then i no reaction then walk.. the bus stop so dark lah! i was so scare loh... lucky the bus came soon after.. if not.. i guess i will cry.. enough of bad experience.. it's good enough to make me fear for my life..

that's my day... then i came home.. watched tv till 11pm... then online.. yup.. that's my day loh... sianz one rite.. haha... i decided not to do my hair le... i do le.. looks no diff from me tying normal hair.. look so rounded.! haha... tml gonna be a lonely day.. go church alone... go dinner alone.. wht's not alone?! i dunnoe... help! some one volunteer to go with me leh.. hahaha i think it's too late to ask now? guess so... hee.. anywya.. i blog till here le ba... go do things le.. hee...

hee.. the 3 siao gals before presentation on fri.. all got career woman look not?

Mel and Hui Qi

Mel and Jasmine

Hee.. Finally I’m back! It’s like.. after so long? The brand new Melinda is back. Hee.. it’s not going to be a sad sad post le.. no point keeping sad memories rite.. hehe… a lot of things had changed since my last post… don’t ask me why am I online when I’m suppose to be studying, tml is my first paper.. AAA sianz sia… haha.. I’m kinda done with the revision le… dunnoe y I’m very slack nowadays… after AAA… Monday I’ve got FMGT… 6 topics of it loh! Sianz.. I only finished 2 topic.. I hope I can finish all of them ontime loh… tml night I’ve got wedding rehearsal, sat one whole day got wedding.. I hope.. and really cross my fingers that I can finish them by Sunday and go for test on Monday! Not really stressed about it leh..(maybe when papers start then I will stress ba)

Don’t talk about those stress stress things le lah.. anyway.. if u are wondering.. wht wedding thing? Melinda’s getting married? Haha.. no lah.. how I wish I’m the one getting married.. but I’m helping to play in a wedding.. (my sis’ friend.. who is also my friend lah). This wedding is a real STRESS! It’s like… dunnoe how to say lah… jus not pleasant.. since day one of the preparation.. sigh.. and becoz of this.. one of my friend is angry with me.. I hope he won’t take it into hrt.. coz I’m really guilty about it.. (sorry k?) it’s a good experience too… learn somethings that I’m sure I won’t let it happen to my wedding (if I’ve got one in the future).. hee.. this wedding is quite an assurance for me in something. (hee.. some ppl knows wht I’m talking about. Kinda religious.. u can come and ask me personally) hee.. it had beed long since I last go for weddings.. I’ve not decided wht to wear for the church ceremony… I dunoe wht to do for my hair for the night dinner.. though I know wht I want to wear already.. hee.. I’m going to wear something that looks like a greek.. hehe! I’m going to wear the dress that I bought for my concert last yr. jus that I don’t really like the shoulder thingy.. so I decided to tie them up.. then it looks greek le.. creative rite? (haha who cares about wht I wear rite).. talking about it.. I also dunnoe wht necklace to wear sia!! Hee… lucky my sister willing to lend me.. but I haven’t go and see wht she has..

Hmm. Anyway… enough of all those “qiao po” thingy.. hehe.! Recently.. I’ve also commit myself into something in sch.. hee.. got to know more friends… it’s quite fun… but still.. I’m a little anti social… sianz.. oh yar… can someone tell me why do I look “motherly” or “auntie” ? don’t be too mean with ur remarks ar… later I cry.. hee.. jk… jus wanna know y… coz ppl wear plain clothes I also mah… some say it’s my specs… but I like this specs so much… hahah anyway.. I’ve got to go le.. I promise to blog regularly (sigh.. who reads my blog anyway… own up ar.. hahah!) Celine and Jian wen are waiting for me to call them now.. hee… Pray for me.. that I can move forward without much stress.

Sarah: hee.. no lah.. I won’t say u copy de… but red is quite different mah… the next specs I wanna get is orange loh.. hee… cool rite.. but I love this red specs…

Brian: still.. I wanna say sorry.

Rest of F03: all de best for test k?! no stress… we try to help each other ba..!! =)